Music Saves Lives

Chapter Forty-Six

The next week in LA was crazy. We had shows along with the album release party. I went to one of the One Direction concerts with Niall. It seemed like everything was getting into a groove.

The album release party was fantastic. I had fun dancing and spending time with Niall. I liked it because he was there as my boyfriend to support me, not as a member of One Direction. Does that make sense? Whatever.

I hated saying goodbye after the concert the boys and I went to. They came off stage and Niall was all sweaty and out of breath. He asked if we wanted to get some food, but we had to get on the bus and start our ride to the next city. He pouted his bottom lip at me and I pulled him into a hug.

“Don’t worry. We’ll see each other next week for the graduation.” My head rested on his chest and he hugged me back.

I shut my eyes and just held him for a minute.

“(y/n)! We gotta fucking go!” Ryan yelled from where he stood saying by to the 1D boys.

I nodded. “I love you, Niall.” I looked up at him.

“I love you too.” He smiled and pecked my lips softly.

I walked away and said bye to the boys. Right before I walked out I gave a small wave to Niall. We all got onto the bus and it started to make its way away from Niall. I went to my bunk to lie down. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and wiped away my tears that I didn’t even realize were falling from my eyes.

*Niall, it’s only a week and I feel like we’ll be apart forever.*

I sent it and put my headphones in and turned on my iPod. Of course One Direction came on. The Ryan always used to make fun of me when I listen to them but he didn’t understand it was just because I wanted to hear Niall’s voice.

*I know babe. I couldn’t stand t watch you leave. I feel every time we are together, I fall deeper in love with you and it makes shit so much harder. Harry came in the dressing room and pinched my cheeks because I was a bit upset t be honest.*

I chuckled.

*I went straight to my bunk. I didn’t even realize I was crying.*

I pulled my blanket over me and snuggled into my pillow.

*Don’t cry.*

That’s all it read and instead of helping I just wanted to cry more. I don’t like the feeling I have when I’m not with him. I should be used to us being apart, but it was so much less painful in the beginning when we barely saw each other. It’s like now I feel like I need him by my side all the time and to tell the truth I was kind of scared of that. I was afraid of falling this hard for a boy. The last time I did I lost him. I don’t know what I would do if I lost Niall. I can’t even let that thought linger in my mind because I know if I think about it more than I already do, I’ll get bad.

*I love you.*

I sent my phone down on the shelf by above my head in my bunk. I pulled my blanket over my head and fell asleep. I heard my phone buzz but I chose to ignore it. I knew it was Niall but I just needed to sleep.

I woke up with a headache. It wasn’t pleasant and to add on to that it was seven in the morning and I was wide awake. I could have slept until noon if I wanted to, but my head wouldn’t allow it. When I looked at my phone for the time, I read Niall’s text.

*I know you’re sad and I wish you weren’t. I love you, (y/n). It scares me how much I love you. I never thought it was possible to fall so hard for a girl. I never knew what people meant by true love, but I found it in you. I really believe I did. I’m not sure on whatever it is that makes you sad or scared when we are apart, but I assure you, you can trust me and I miss you when were aren’t together. I’m sorry we can’t be normal, but we sure as hell can make it through anything and it will be worth it when we are able to get married and have kids and grow old together. I love you. I really truly love you with all my heart. xxxxx*