Music Saves Lives

Chapter Thirteen

I jumped up, startled by the knock on my door and hesitated opening the door. When I say his face in the peep hole I just wanted him to leave.

 “(y/n), you forgot your clothes.” He knocked again.

“Niall go away!” I yelled standing on the other side of the door. My heart was beating out of my chest.

“But your clothes.” He sighed.

“Just leave them and go away.”

I watched as the sight of him disappeared from my peep hole. I opened my door and grabbed my clothes.

“Let’s talked.” He said, causing me to jump and grab at the towel to keep it up.

“No.” I tried to shut the door, but his foot stopped it.

“Please.”

“I’m pretty sure even if I talk you’d say I was using you for something.” I snapped.

His head hung. “That’s was low of me. I know. I didn’t mean it. You didn’t have to turn down Simon’s offer.”

“I did and I’m fine. Can you go now, because I’m sure you noticed I’m naked under this towel.” I folded my arms over my chest.

I saw him look up through his eyelashes.

“Can you please leave?” I asked, pushing his shoulder slightly.

He grabbed my wrist. “Who’s Kyle?” he asked, looking up at me.

“What?” I gulped.

“I heard you on the radio. Is Kyle the one who got you, y’know?” he ran his fingers through his hair.

I sighed. “No he wasn’t and it shouldn’t matter to you, you’re not my boyfriend and I don’t have to tell you.” I adjusted my towel.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” his eyes looked sad.

“You didn’t have to know.” I crossed my hand over my chest.

“Are you serious? You just loved to keep shit from me, didn’t you?” his voice raised.

“Niall, calm the fuck down. Let me change and I’ll tell you even though you don’t deserve it.” I pushed past him and took my clothes into the bathroom. I came out and Niall was sitting in the desk chair at the end of my bed. “Now are you going to listen to me and not get mad?” I asked sitting on my bed.

He nodded and turned the chair to face me. “Yeah.”

“Okay good.” I sighed. “Kyle, was the love of my life. I was going to marry him.” Niall looked confused. “He was the boy who helped me through high school. Before you, he was the only one who knew about my almost baby. He didn’t judge me for it; in fact he fell in love with me despite of it.”

I went on and told Niall everything about Kyle, about how he died and about how he and I planned to spend our lives together, even about my necklace. Throughout the whole thing Niall sat and nodded, listening to my every word. It was nice to actually talk about it, out loud, instead of in my head. I need the release I guess.

I was crying the entire time and I could tell Niall wasn’t sure what to do, but when I was finished talking I felt a lump in my throat and my tears turned into sobbing and I could barely breathe.

“(y/n). shhh. Please.” Niall stood up from the chair and pulled me into a hug.

I cried into his tank top. He rubbed my back and I choked on my tears. I was sniffling and wiping my eyes. I pulled away from him and looked at his shirt.

“I got your shoulder all wet.” I wiped my nose.

“It’s okay.” He shrugged.”(y/n), I can stay with you tonight.” He looked hopeful.

“I don’t think that’s a good idea, Ni.” I sat down on the bed and looked at my feet.

He sat down next to me. “Please. So I know you’re okay.”

“I’ll be fine.” I looked at him.

Niall leaned into me and I bobbed my head away. “Sorry.” He whispered.

“It’s okay. I just can’t do that Niall. You hurt me. You practically let me go because when you found out I wasn’t a virgin and wouldn’t sleep with you, you couldn’t stand it. You stopped caring. You made everything weird.”

He looked at me and tears rimmed his eyes. “I didn’t mean to act like I didn’t care. I still care. I’m just an idiot.”

A tear slipped down his cheek. “The way you acted and the things you said to me hurt. You know how much I hurt in the past, yet you didn’t seem to have problem being so cold to me. I’m not trying to play victim, I just don’t get how you were so amazing to me one night and then so rude the next.” I knew I was being harsh, so I rubbed his back. “I really was looking forward to falling in love with you.”

He remained silent for the longest time. Neither of us wanted to say anything else, but I knew he didn’t want to leave. So, I got off the bed and turned the TV on then pulled back the covers and climbed into bed. Niall looked at me from where he was sitting at the end of the bed and I smiled. He stood up and crawl into the bed on the other side. He laid down facing me and I turned to face him, the blue-ish glow from the TV screen highlighted his face. He smiled at me and I kissed his nose. I bit my lip and sat up. I wasn’t sure why I was doing what I was about to do but it felt right. I grabbed the bottom of my t-shirt and pulled it over my head. Niall quickly sat up and looked confused.

“What-“ I put my finger against his lips and smirked.

He took that as a sign to reach over his head and tugged his shirt off. I took in the view of his bare chest and pushed him down onto his back.

“(y/n), we shouldn’t.” he mumbled as I connected my lips to his neck and straddled his hips.

“Ni.” I moaned kissing his lips. “Just go with it.”

My thumbs sunk under the hem of his swim trunks and I lowered them down his hips. He bucked up and allowed me to pull them down his thighs.

“(y/n).” he breathed out, before I came back up and attached our lips.

I knew what I was doing wasn’t the smartest thing to do, but I needed it. I needed to feel someone close to me and feel like someone cared. It’s kind of lonely being away so much. Yeah, I had Ariel, but she was more like a mother I didn’t really want to talk to about my problems.  Niall was here and holding me and everything just felt to right. I couldn’t stop myself once I started. It had been so long since I felt someone. I wanted to be with Niall, but I also wanted to be in love. And in love with Niall, was something I was not.

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