Take Me To The NeverLand

The Daddy?!

*PERRIE'S P.O.V*

It's the first day of school, or the first day that I will go to the school, and I am not exciting, the whole school knew about Joey's death, and they think he dead normally, they don't know he was killed, by his cousin! Today is the day, I don't care how would I look...I just want to end this fucking days of my life and die...The pain inside me never go away and it Fucking hurts!

"Ready bunny!" Josh asked so he can give me a ride as I don't like driving anymore..

"Yes.." I gave him a warmed smile and then jumped into the car, going to school..is like killing yourself by your own hands! The roads were really dark, and dead..it's like they are feeling my heart.
"You sure you wanna do this alone?" Josh asked.
I just nodded and no, I don't think so, going back to school after everyone knowing that Joey is dead..scares me, he was the one who always helped me out in life, how can I live again without him, when I open my Facebook and see my best friends posts as "I can live without him!" , but that's because he was an asshole and left her, he never did, he is always inside me, I can feel his love heating me up, but when I need I hug, I cover inside myself to keep me warm and safe..because he isn't here anymore so I can fee safe..

"Okkyy! Have a nice day my beautiful sister!" Josh said as he hugged me..
"Thanks.Bye." And I slowly opened the door, not letting go of the door, as like I wanna go back to home and never see people..but mom said I can't stay in bed all days not even breathing fresh air..but I guess I am not fresh anymore..so that wouldn't matter right?

I finally let go of the door and moved slowly towards the school..people were laughing and playing..until they saw me..everything stopped but their eyes didn't..they were following me with their eyes slowly and creepily...and I can hear the girls going.. "oh my god! Poor Perrie..She didn't deserve that much of a pain!" And others, "Oh what a drama girl! Actually she deserves it! She isn't the kind of girl that should be happy tho!"
And I am just moving, slowly, scared, fear in my body never left, and I felt that terrible pain in my back, especially my backbone, like I just want a knife so i can cut it and never feel that kind of pain! I couldn't breathe, I want to vomit, I want to cry, I want to cut myself... I felt like the world was moving in circles that feels when you make funny turns with your sister but instead it was horrible, scary..my eyes were only seeing black dots, I couldn't move..I can't do it, I can't do it.!

"Woah! Perrie Are you okay?" Lily said holding me up as I was going to fall,
"It's okay Perrie, I am here, no worries..right?" Lily said comforting me..she is the only one now I can feel normal with ...

*Bell Rings*
"C'mon, Our Class Starts Now!"
I moved with here holding my hands, and rubbing them into each other as I was freezing! And as I entered the class, for a second people looked and then they never looked back..
"Hey-" I slightly jumped from fear as Miss Clark touched me..
"Oh..I Am Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you .. How are you now?"

Um..Is this like a real question?? Like should I answer? What do you see?? My eyes are red, I have black under eye circles because I can't fucking sleep, I can't fucking stop thinking about those shitty stuff! I fucking can't eat! I can't test food! I am always fucking freezing! My face looks ugly from tears! I can't breathe well, I am scared, I feel scared, I need him in my life, I need him. Just him.

"Yes, i am fine." I replied. I moved toward the last set, I don't like sitting in front anymore. I like staying alone with myself. Not talking or seeing anyone.
"Okay class, we are having a new activities this year, as there is the Spy Daughters, but you guys no one was a mother a spy here, so this is the biggest activity in the school right now....."

*After the school*

I walked to home as Josh was having a date with Lily, they are going pretty well, just like me and Joey, we weren't just well, we were amazing. I am no scared, for every single couples, what about the couples who break up? Like. What their feelings will be like when you leave someone who you are truly in love with?! As I was walking I saw a car looks just like Jessica's car..but I knew that car was stolen from our home?.. Weird, maybe it's a different one, as I am walking slowly to just see the face..And..OH MY GOD! Is That?!!

*Someone pulling me into the car and his hands all over my mouth to shut it from screaming!*

"WHAT THE FUCK?!" I shouted as I pushed him away! He was shocked but mostly blessed no one heard me screaming...
"Hey Perrie." He said coldly while sitting down.
"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?!" I again shouted!
"What? Wanna a sip?" He asked offering me a sip from his RedBull..
"Wait! So you are in the city and didn't move?"
"Move? Did you really think I would move from the city every girl thinks I rock? When did you get believing you sister?" And as he mentioned my sister I was so mad I wanted to take his head off!
"Seriously! Now you remember her?? My sister is fucked up because of you! She got pregnant and she will give birth in like few weeks!! And you just fucking left, Austin!!"
He laughed out and said while coughing "HEY! Put yourself in my place, one day we had fun and I am completely in love with my life and the second I am a dad and I should work and be responsible, no please, I am happy with my life! I told her to do whatever the girls do in her place, she just disagreed and she didn't see our relationship?!"
"Are you fucking serious?! You want her to kill the baby?!?"
"I can't be the father right now.."
"Or never!! Wait wait, how the car is with you?"
"I got the thief!" He smirked and laughed a bit. He is so annoying ! Wait he is the thief! Wait no way!
"I will call the police right now!!" I said opening my phone!
"I will pick you up at 9, we have a place to go. Bye Per!" He opened the door and let me out!

Wait! Why would Austin want me? What's Happening to me? I never will go anyways..

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Howdy! Hello People of the world! I am so sorry I have been too late, I am re-editing my story because I found a lot of mistakes..so I am editing it. Things gonna get really excited by the way, I hope you will like it. I will be adding some details on my Facebook page, Don't Forget To Vote , Comment And Please Share It To Your Friends.
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-Sou