We Only Have The Night (Completed)

Paradise And Hell

Hi everybody! How are you? One more chapter finished, or sort of, since I need to correct many grammar flaws in the story that I only spot later. I'm doing it all by myself and english it's not my first language, so I'm sorry for any mistake and thank you so much for being pacient :D

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And thanks so much again for reading! :D

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I decide to get some distance from José and I literally climb a tree when we get to my favorite spot in the middle of the pine trees of Caleirão Woods. He looks at me annoyed but he doesn't protest. After our last meeting in Lili's house 15 minutes ago, I really need to calm down. For some reason and since last year I can't put my emotions out and now I feel like my chest has been wrecked by some huge rock at full force in the moment José declared his love for me.

"Raios, eu amo-te!!"

Damn, I love you!!

That's what he said to me and the words echoed in my head many many times. It is liberating and annoying at the same time.

That's the kind of powerful frustrating feeling I never thought I would feel. Do I feel it? For José? Damn, I wish I know for sure! But for sure I never felt like this before.

I'm getting the impression I will explode at any minute though. Because I'm aware of how much I feel it, better than ever, but I'm enable to express them for everyone to see. I can't clear myself from the overwhelming sensation of being loved. And it keeps itself inside of me to remind me I don't own myself.

Now that we stop, José standing on the ground and I'm pathetically at the top of a pine tree, he wants to know more details about how Diego became my supplier. I know José is doing this so I have to delay my decision to get away from him, even though that's what I should be doing by now. What kind of good I would possibly do to him? None. He is just deluded by his own feelings.

- It was actually pretty simple José. I heard from Lili that Diego is a trouble maker and a drug dealer. That was exactly what I needed and it was easy to find him after one of his visits to his mother.

He thought I was playing with him, when I told him what I wanted from him and Diego refused to help, but surprisingly a week later he came to me, I was already in complete dispair and couldn't stay close to anyone. He found me in the woods, calling my name whispering like an idiot not wanting to enter through the woods to come after me. After we decided all the terms of the business he started to supply me.

- How you manage to pay him? I mean, no offense, but you protect the woods for free, and I know you don't have any jobs here, so... How come you get €400 per month to pay for his "services"? Did your mother helps you? Anyway Diego exploits you pretty badly. It's unacceptable.

- I pay for his silence too, I don't mind... And I actually work José. The same job I used to have in London.

- Which is?...

- I'm a columnist, writer and translator. But mostly writer.

- Wow... I should have guessed since you never got out of your mother's house all the Summers you came here, you must used to do it when you're in London, so you had to chose a career where you could keep yourself in home too. Even though the situation got all way around now... You actually get out. Anyway, there's any work I possibly know from you? I mean I never heard about a best-seller signed by Night Dantas.

I internally rolled my eyes. Really?

- Thanks to the Moon you will never see a cover with a ridiculous name like mine. I actually never wanted to show myself in public. So, I pay to a friend to represent me.