All alone

Chapter 5

I came home tired and exhausted. I wasn't in the mood and if Sophie and/or Austin bothered me I wouldn't be surprised. They always seem to bother me for some reason. Ask questions like, "Why is mom always talking about the kids bullying you?" or "Wanna play on the Wii?".

Geez, if I knew why maybe I wouldn't have to deal with that burden on my back all the time.

"Hey Aubrey, mom wants you. She said it's urgent." Sophie and Austin said at the same time. Ooh by the way their twins. It was suppose to be triplets but then, the last one had a tumor problem in his brain and it didn't make it alive. Sophie and Austin at first didn't know but then when they realize that mom kept having three of everything, they asked mom on their 8th birthday. Sometimes I wonder how they are so smart and yet they don't understand the word bullying.

".....you wanted me." I asked curiously.

"I bought you three dresses. So, look at them, try them on and the one that you choose will be the one that you will be wearing for the school dance."

"Why did you buy three dresses? One dress would have been good enough." I said looking at the dresses she bought.

You see my so called mom loves to buy me a lot of choices because sometimes, if I don't like them then she basically sends them back.

"I'm sorry sweetheart, you know my routine already. You know if you had came, maybe you would be happier. All I am trying to do is to make you happy." she sniffles and closes the door behind her.

Ugh... No one gets me. I wish I could just go back to the way things were before. When I had a real mom. A family of my own. Such as, dad coming home to kiss me and my real mommy's cheek and sweet talking my mom and telling her how much he loves her and me. That is the way my life was before everything turned to the wrong exist. I HATE MY LIFE. I HATE EVERYONE IN IT RIGHT NOW!

I started throwing stuff off my bookshelf and fell onto the floor, knees first. I cried into my hands until I knew I would have a headache. It took me a while to calm down but when I did, I felt angry and upset and really steamed. I felt like I wanted to yell at the world and I wanted everyone to hate me. But on the other hand, I felt like I wanted to end the horror, so that everyone could be happy.

Later that night my "so called family" called me for dinner. I wasn't hungry so I told them, I didn't want any. They got the message loud and clear when they saw me curled into my blanket with the covers around me. I hate my life.

I was never good at showing my feelings. If I ever did, it wouldn't be that obvious. I climbed up on my bed and I honestly didn't know when I fell asleep but I did.

I woke up feeling like the world was sitting on my head and I wasn't able to move. I went to my bathroom and turned on the bright lights. Everything was blurry for awhile until little spots unrevealed in front of me. I then brushed my teeth and put the cold water on my face. After I was done I headed in the shower making the beaming hot water drip down my naked body. Once I was done, I got out the shower and started looking for my outfit which didn't need any thought to it.

Today was the day for the school dance. I am so dreading to go, but if it will make my so called mother happy and quiet for a while then, I guess it wouldn't hurt. I finally found my outfit that I was going to wear. It was a pink pants with a dark gray hoodie and nude highlights. I made my hair wavy but not too wavy. I grabbed my bag and walked out my room.