One Life

Chapter 7

Just letting ye know that every now and again I mightbe using songs from different artists in the story and making it out that Justin wrote them to describe how he feels :P

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Justin's POV

It's been two days since Selena came and she was still here. I hadn't the chance to be alone with her all that much because she mostly hung out with Demi. Not that I was complaining. I needed to break up with her but I just couldn't find the right time. I was currently sitting in the lounge writing a song, when Lauren walked in.

"Oh sorry, I didn't know you'd be in here" she said awkwardly.

Since I confessed to the girls how I felt about Lauren I'd barely seen her. I guess she thought I was still odd with her. She was about to walk away when I called out to her.

"It's grand. Come in" I smiled. "Look can I just apologise for the way I acted in the past week? I was just being stupid and I'm sorry if I upset you. I'd stuff going on and I was acting like a jerk towards you. I really am sorry"

She smiled. "It's fine don't worry about it. You doing much at the moment?" She asked. "We can go do something with the girls if you're up for it"

"That sounds good actually. I need to clear my head" I replied.

"Clear your head?" She asked confused.

"Yeah. I wrote a song and I can't get a sound to accompany the lyrics and it's driving me insane" I said.

"What's the song about?" She asked.

"It's about finding the words to say that a relationship you're in is over without hurting the other person" I replied.

"Mind if I hear it?" She asked.

I wasn't really sure if I wanted people to hear it. Lauren was about to say something when I nodded my head and smiled.

"Yes, of course you can" I said. "I'd like to hear someone else's view on it. So here goes then"

I ain't gunna lie you were number 1 then
but I don't feel the same no more I just want you as a friend
I'm done trying to pretend they say good things dont last forever some day they gotta end
matter of fact I'm doing you a favour Had enough of fucking girls coming back for you later
I'm sick of having to delete everything in my pager
baby I ain't Britney but I'm dropping up ya rader

She wonder why I never pick up my phone
cuz all I'm tryin to do is keep it on the low
I think I need to let her know before she find out on her own
either way I'm gunna break her heart when I tell her go

All my people round the world if you like somebody else
How do you find the words to say its over
Ive been wanting to tell you
but I dont know how to tell you
How do you find the words to tell them its over?
Baby its killing me this just isnt right for me
I think I like somebody else

I ain't gunna lie you were number one then
but it just aint the same anymore you're out of my top 10
this aint good for your health if only you knew that everytime I'm fucking you I think of somebody else
I knew that one of us were gunna get hurt from the get go
I told you I told I said so I hate having to fake the feeling everytime that we get low it
I think its better for the both of us if we let go

She wonders why I'm never round these days but as soon I touch base she'll be all up in my face
its the same old shit she never gives me any space
how do I tell her someones taking her place?

All my people round the world if you like somebody else
How do you find the words to say its over?
Ive been wanting to tell you
but I don't know how to tell you
How do you find the words to tell them its over?
Baby its killing me this just isn't right for me
I think I like somebody else

Why should I feel guilty?
Its plain to see I ain't being myself
Is it wrong I want it from somewhere else?
I been holding out for sooo long.
Now Why do I feel guilty?
Its plain to see I aint being myself
Is it wrong I want it from somewhere else?
I been holding out for soooo long

Ooohhh wwooo oohhwwoo

Cant take no more
I wont pretend another day
I think its time for me to say exactly how I feel
Cant take no more
I just aint happy anymore
I just keep lying to myselfff

How do you find the words to say its over?
I been wanting to tell you but I dont know how to tell you
How do you find the words to tell them its over?
Baby it's killing me this just isn't right for me
I think I like somebody else

Why should I feel guilty?
Its plain to see I aint being myself
Is it wrong I want it from somewhere else?
I been holding out for sooo long.
Now Why do I feel guilty?
Its plain to see I aint being myself
Is it wrong I want it from somewhere else?
I been holding out for soooo long

I was looking at the ground whilst singing. I didn't dare look at Lauren in case my face gave me away. I didn't want her knowing she was the 'someone else' in the song. When I was finished I dared to look at her to see her reaction.

"That was really good and well written" she said. "You clearly put all your emotions into that song. It's a song that nearly everyone can relate too"

"What's a song that everyone can relate too?" Another voice asked.

My heart dropped. The person the song was written about was basically asking to listen to the song. I turned to face Selena smiling at her. I needed to think up of a lie quick but I was also hesitant to lie in case Lauren ratted me out. Turned out Lauren was one step ahead of me.

"One of our songs on our album" Lauren lied.

"Cool. I can't wait to hear it" Selena said. "I came in here to see if ye wanted to go out and get ice cream with the rest of us. Do ye want to come?" She asked.

Both Lauren and I nodded. I held the door open for Lauren as we walked out and I mouthed her a 'thank you' she just smiled at me. God that smile was amazing. I wanted her to smile at me like that all the time.

One thing for sure was that I owed Lauren big time for covering me. When I got her on her own again I'd make sure to thank her properly. Then my mind started to race. What if Lauren knew that song was about Selena? What if Lauren guessed that the 'someone else' could be her? I mean I had avoided her for a week for no reason at all. Maybe she'd put the pieces together and realised how I felt. All hell could break loose if she decided to tell others before she came to talk to me about it. All I could do was pray that she didn't.

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The song used was 'Say It's Over' by a British group called N-Dubz. Anyway I hope ye enjoyed :P