One Life

Chapter 12

Justin's POV

The girls were finally back today and to say I was excited was an understatement. They were due to be at the arena at 1:00 p.m. I was walking around the arena with a spring in my step and everyone could tell.

"You're very happy today Justin. It's nice to see. You were pretty down for the past few weeks" Demi noted.

"Yeah I was. I really missed those girls and I can't wait to see them again!" I told her excitedly.

God I must of looked like a child on Christmas Day but I didn't care I was just so happy and excited. Demi just shook her head and laughed. I walked into the lounge to wait for the girls.

I sat down and took a deep breath. I hadn't spoken to Lauren since the day we Skyped. Since that day I decided I was going to tell her how I feel. I was nervous as hell to tell her. I was scared that she would shoot me down and it would ruin our friendship. As 1:00 p.m became closer I got more nervous to see Lauren. I told myself over and over again to just get it over with and don't be scared.

I ended up dozing off and was woken up by someone banging the door open. I woke with a start and was engulfed in a massive group hug. At first I was seriously confused until I realised it was the girls. When the hug broke apart I ended up laughing.

"My heart! You frightened me. I thought I was being kidnapped for a second" I told them.

The girls just giggled. It was then I realised that there was only four of them. Where was Lauren? I needed to see her.

"Where's Lauren?" I asked.

"She's outside" answered Ally. "She just saying goodbye to- wait Justin" she called out.

I didn't hear her, or the other girls calling me back. My mind was focused on seeing Lauren. I needed to see her, to tell her how I felt about her. She needed to know. I dreamed every night about her having the same feelings about me and having her in my arms. As I ran outside I hoped that she felt the same way about me. I knew we were perfect for each other. I just hoped she felt the same.

I ran outside and looked around for Lauren. When I saw her it felt like I ran into a brick wall. Lauren was there with some guy who I guessed was Brad and kissing him goodbye. Watching them felt like my heart was being ripped out. I turned around to walk back to the arena with my head low.

"Justin?"

I turned around to see Lauren walking over to me with a smile on her face. She gave me a hug and I did my best not to let the pain I was feeling show on my face. Brad stood behind her looking awkward as hell. I just smiled at Lauren. I didn't dare open my mouth in case my voice cracked due to being upset.

"How have you been? I meant to text you but I was just really busy" she said.

She turned to Brad and introduced him to me. I shook his hand and he smiled at me. I smiled back but I really didn't want to.

"I've got to get back inside" I told her.

I walked away not bothering to say goodbye. I just wasn't in the mood. When I walked back inside I bumped into Ally. She could tell by the look on my face that I'd seen Brad and Lauren together. She pulled my into a tight hug.

"Justin I'm sorry we didn't tell you in advance. We were just about to tell you when you ran out the door" she said.

"It's fine" I sighed. "I'll just have to get over it won't I? He seems like a nice guy so as long as she's happy that's all that matters. Anyway I've got to go set up so I'll see you later"

That was a lie. I didn't need to set up. I just didn't want to see anyone. I walked back to the lounge and was relieved no one was in there. I locked the door because I didn't want to be disturbed. I sat down and tears fell from my eyes.

Lauren had a boyfriend. She looked really happy with him. I was upset because that should've of been me with her. I kicked myself for not telling her how I felt sooner. Damn I related to my song "That Should Be Me" so much right now. My phone went off and I looked at my phone to see it was a text from Lauren asking where I was. I sighed. I had to face her eventually. I told myself that her happiness was important and if I couldn't provide it someone else should. I sighed.

I got up and unlocked the door and went out to find Lauren. I kept telling myself that Lauren was happy and that's all that mattered. But it still didn't make me feel better.