One Life

Chapter 22

Lauren's POV

The girls and I had a day off today so I was going to make the most of it and lie in. I woke up and rolled over to the bedside table to get my phone to check the time. 11:30 a.m. I sighed knowing I should get up and get breakfast but I didn't want to leave my bed. Ugh. I was just about to get out when Normani burst through the door.

"Oh my god are you ok?!" I asked.

"I'm fine" she panted. She sounded like she had just ran a marathon. "You need to hear what Justin said" she continued.

I rolled my eyes and sighed. "No thanks Normani I'm good. I told you I want nothing to do with him"

I got up and started to push her out the door. She started arguing with me saying I needed to hear what he said, she said that it was important. I didn't care and continued to push her out the door.

"I'll make sure you hear it, one way or another" she huffed.

I just rolled my eyes and put my back against the door. I was annoyed with Normani. She knew that I wanted nothing to do with Justin, so why on earth would I want to listen to his interview? There was nothing he could say that would make me want to talk to him.

I heard a knock on the door and heard Dinah call my name. I sighed and opened the door. Normani, Ally, Camila and Dinah were all standing outside the door. What the hell was going on?

"I know you want nothing to do with Justin but-" Dinah began.

"Here we go again" I muttered.

"Just listen to what he said" Dinah sighed.

"Fine" I sighed. "Where can I listen to it?" I asked.

The girls smiled each other, knowing that they'd won. Normani picked up the laptop and pressed on a link. They handed me the laptop and walked out. I didn't want to listen but my curiosity got the better of me, so I pressed play.

I listened to what he said with tears streaming down my eyes. He loves me. For ages I was convinced he hated me but now I see he didn't. It made me happy that despite not even talking for months that he never seemed to give up.

I had to see him. I had to tell him that I loved him too. I had to explain to him that I was scared, that day he told me how he felt. I had to tell him that I lied because I was scared of what might happen to our friendship if we began dating. I was too immersed in my thoughts that I hadn't even realised that the girls had walked into the room.

"I think it's time you listened to his new music" Ally suggested. "I never told you this but that day I went to see Justin after you two fought I overheard him singing a song. I walked in on him in the studio when he was singing Where Are Ü Now, he admitted that it was about you. So you should listen to it" she continued.

I nodded my head and Dinah began playing the song. Throughout the song I kept having flashbacks of memories we had together, due to certain lyrics in the song. When the song was finished playing I had fresh tears in my eyes.

"I've to go see him" I said.

The girls just nodded and left the room. I grabbed my car keys and made my way to the car. After listening to the song my head was full of memories I shared with Justin, due to those lyrics. As I began to think about the song, I realised that the lyrics had a meaning to them.

"I gave you the key when the door wasn't open"

Justin gave me the key to his heart. He trusted me not to break it, but I did. Justin allowed me into a place that he normally wouldn't allow anyone else to enter. He trusted me, yet I felt that somehow I broke that trust, by lying to him.

"See, I gave you faith, turned your doubt into hoping, can't deny it"

He was right. I couldn't deny the fact that he always turned my doubt into hope. I used to always doubt myself yet he always used to tell me things I needed to hear to make me believe in myself. He gave me faith in myself. He always gave me support in everything. No matter what.

"Now I'm all alone and my joys turned to moping"

I always noticed that Justin was always happy when he was around the girls and I. Since we stopped talking I noticed he looked unhappy. It broke my heart to think I was the cause of his upset.

"I gave you the shirt off my back, what you saying?
To keep you warm"

I remembered the time he stayed with us for the week. Everyone had gone outside for some reason that is still unknown to me. I vaguely remember someone wanting to look at the stars. It was freezing that night and I'd no jacket, so Justin gave me his whilst he froze. I laughed to myself over that thought.

"I need you the most"

I could hear the desperation in his voice. It was only now I realised how much I meant to him. I couldn't help but feel that he still wants me in his life. Why though? Hadn't I caused him pain and upset? I cried over the thought of making him upset.

I wiped the tears from my eyes and started the car. 'What Do You Mean?' had just begun playing so I powered down the car and just listened to the song. It was catchy as hell and really good.

I remember how he always used to moan about how girls were confusing as hell and that we could never make up our minds. He always vowed that he would write a song about it. I used to laugh at him and tell him he was being silly. I couldn't help but laugh knowing that he actually did end up writing a song about girls being confusing.

I was about to start the car and leave when another car pulled up. My breath caught in my throat when I saw who it was. It was Justin. I couldn't believe he was actually here.

He got out of his car and began to walk towards the house. He hadn't noticed me in the car yet so I decided to get out of the car and talk to him. He stopped in his tracks when he saw me.

"Hey" he said nervously.

He looked nervous to see me. I guess he didn't know how I'd react. I bet he thought I was just going to turn around and ignore him. But I wasn't. I was so happy to see him. We both had so much to talk about. It was about time we told each other how we truly felt about one another.

"Hey" I smiled.