Staying With The Bad Boy For Two Months

It Was All A Mistake, I Know : 9

 "Help, I have done it again..I have been here many times before. Hurt myself again today, and the worst part is, there's no one else to blame."

A/N : Listen to music, PLEASE !!

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 I had went home early that day..blaming it on sickness. Which, in most cases I'd be lying, but I was sick. Not because of the kiss, but because I had enjoyed it more, even though I knew it was a mistake. A mistake he made. It was the moment, I am sure. Maybe he was thinking of Kira and that was why he stormed off. But I knew he did not mean it. I'd be having high hopes if I thought it wasn't.

 Now, two days had passed. I had not bothered showing my face. Not answering any phone calls, because I knew I was not ready for the publicity of people laughing at my reaction. I was scared. Hurt. Even my best friend would not understand the pain I have been going through. I called my mom and she was exhausted because the times were different by a long shot, so we had to hang up early. I really just needed to talk to someone. But then again, I didn't. Lately I have been hearing noises after school is over in Alec's room. I would be lying to myself if I said it wasn't another one of his hookups, but it pained me more just to think like that. I didn't understand it. I didn't understand any of this. 

 Knock, Knock.

 The first social interaction in a while, I presume? Hm. I stood up from the bed, tossed open the door and breathed softly. My heart instantly hurt at seeing him. The last person I wanted to see.

"We need to talk." Alec mumbled, looking at me up and down. I shivered. I know, I looked horrendous. But what would you expect? I was confused. He shouldn't expect much, anyways, since he obviously didn't find my appearance even the slightest bit appealing. Neither did I. 

"No, we do not." I said, trying to close the door, but he pushed it open and walked in. I couldn't stop him, but I wanted to. "Alec--" I croaked, gripping my sides to keep from sobbing. 

"Just listen, Avalon." He growled. Nodding, I sat down on my bed and curled up against the headboard, tracing my fingers along the flower vines that were embroidered against the hickory. "That kiss.." He trailed off, but I chuckled. 

"Was a mistake, meant nothing, you still hate me; I know. I'm not suitable enough to talk about this, or to you, so if you do not mind, I'd like to be alone." He parted his lips as if he were going to talk, but nodded, stepping out of the room and closing the door behind him. I let loose, allowing all of the emotions to spill out with ease. It hurt too much. I never thought I would allow Alec to get to me like this..but then again, so did every other girl. I was just dumb enough to fall for it. 

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 After I had calmed down and lied back to relax, Olivia walked in with two cups of coffee in her hands. I smiled at her, knowing she had the senses of a coon hound. It was the exact thing I wanted since Monday.

"Honey, talk to me. What happened?" Olivia said, handing me the mug and sitting down in front of me. I brought the warm beverage to my lips and sipped carefully. She was such a nice lady. 

"Boy troubles, I guess you could say. I'm just..eh. I try to be nice, but I always get shot down." It felt good to be able to talk to someone about it. Someone who I'd think would understand and give me advice. Not to handle Alec, but to be able to shoo off his anger and find happiness somewhere beneath his ruthless ways. It had to be there, somewhere, right?

"Boys are jerks, Avi. You can't let such a simple subject get to you like this." I knew she'd never understand..She is nice and all, and I really like her, but she had it too good. She met Jackson in college and life was good for her. But she couldn't possibly understand. 

"Yeah.." I mumbled, taking another swig of the coffee. 

"You have a call from someone downstairs, love. The house phone is on the kitchen counter." She smiled warmly, patting my leg before walking out. I stood a few minutes later and walked downstairs, taking a seat at the counter and picking up the phone. Ugh, Emery. I should at least let her know I am okay.

"Hello?" She picked up moments after the dialing tone.

"Hey, Em." I chuckled, taking soft breaths. 

"OHMYGOD. YOU FINALLY CALLED!!" She shouted. I laughed, shaking my head.

"Yep." I replied oddly.

"Get ready, honey. We are going to Tanner's party tonight!" What. Um, no?

"Ha, you are funny. I'm not going anywhere if Alec is going to be there. Sorry." I said simply, sighing.

"No, you are going. I will force you. I'm coming over in five, be ready!" She laughed, hanging up. I mentally slammed my head against the counter-top and screamed. How in the heavens does she think I am going to suffice through this party without crying? With Alec there, especially. It could not possibly be done. 

"You should go." Alec said from behind me. I turned around, seeing him casually leaning up against the door frame. He forced a smile. Oh, God, that smile..I shook my head, standing up. "I'm not going, Avalon. Plus, Kayde wants you there." He stated.

"Why does he want me there?" I asked softly, placing the phone back down on the counter.

"Because he likes you. You like him. Just go." I arched my eyebrow, stifling a laugh. That was impossible. Me and Kayde were just friends, and plus, liking someone is not exactly the highschool type of relationships, these days. 

"I do not like Kayde, Alec..And besides, I am only going if you do." I said with a smile.

"Fine. But why? I thought we weren't on good terms right now." 

"Because I want you to be happy and you are not going to be happy if you are alone." I really did care for Alec..Possibly more than a lot of people. Why? I'm not exactly sure. He just dug his way into my heart and planted himself there. 

"Who said I was going to be alone?" Alec smirked, crossing his arms over his chest and grinning.

"Booty calls do not count." I growled, walking towards him and scoffing, attempting at walking past him. He grabbed my wrist and prevented my from walking upstairs. I turned to him in question, parting my lips to take a breath. "What?"

"That kiss was not a mistake, Avalon." Alec whispered. I nodded, smiling. 

"You do not have to pretend, you know. I'm fine." He looked agitated at that, shaking his head.

"Don't believe me? I'll prove it." He snapped. Before I could retort, he leaned forwards and placed his lips on mine..again. Why does this keep happening. It only got deeper though. Alec cradled my waist and pressed me up against the wall, forcing me to push him away. 

"Stop." I muttered, slipping out of his hold and sighing. "I'm not ready for this. For you. I do not want to get hurt again." He looked at me questionably and huffed a breath, letting his arms fall to his sides.

"What do you mean, Avalon? I'm not trying to hurt you."

"I'm not going to allow you to charm me with your kisses and let you take advantage of me, only to leave me in the dust like you do with all of the other girls. I'm different, Alec. I like the cute type of romance, not to be pressured." I said, frowning. 

"Cute?" He looked eager to burst into a fit of laughter.

"You would never understand. You aren't the type. I do not expect you to. Now, get ready." I smiled, hopping up the stairs and into my room. 

 There was not much to choose from out of the clothes I had brought. Not much at all, really. I ended up just going with a baby blue crop top that came down to my mid-stomach, high waist-ed light blue denim shorts, a cream colored cardigan and white converse. My converse, were my life. No question about it. My hair was just pulled back into a straightened ponytail. I did not get too excited to dress up for this party, mainly because I was not one to do such a thing.