Staying With The Bad Boy For Two Months

It Has Been A Week : 14

A/N : The time you have all been waiting for. Drum roll, please. Nah, I am not that much of a melodramatic! But for real, this is based on Alec's point of view. Maybe, I will even do the rest of the crews as well if it will make it more interesting? ;) So, this chapter will be a little push up from time, I suppose. Avalon goes to school and blah and you know the rest, hiding from Alec and his little posse, including Kayde. She can't seem to face him. It has been a week since their involuntary discussion, find out the rest. :) Love you!

" So why do good girls like bad guys? I've had this question for a real long time. I've been a bad boy and it's plain to see, so why do good girls fall in love with me? "

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I lied flatly on my back, sucking in a cold breath. These days were going by ever so tortuously slowly. One, I have not seen Avalon for about a week, and this feeling, hell, I can't deny it, keeps forming in my chest. What is life without a feisty little independent girl trying to control it? Absolute shit, that's what. You can't blame me though, having such a girl near me makes any guy go wild. She is the definition of perfect.

No, stop being gay.

I growled, shoving myself upwards and slamming my hands down on my bed. She is an innocent little girl that is much too sweet for her own good, and she still has the ability to kill me with kindness. I feel so odd when I am with her, and without her, so empty. It does not make sense. Fuck, I am sounding like a pussy. But it has been two and a half weeks, at the most, and I have already made her cry and shout and break right in front of me. I cannot tell if I am doing it in pure instinct, or enjoyment. I needed to get my mind off of things, quick.

"What do you want, Alec?" Kira answered. My mind flashed back to Avalon as she spoke, remembering the way she hissed at me in such a way. It was sexy as hell, but when Kira said it, it was rather boring. Ah fuck me, why don't I just go to Avalon's room and fall to my knees and apologize? Maybe send her a fruit basket or an edible arrangement? Oh my god. I am becoming gayer by the second.

"Come over, baby." I spoke soothingly. A voice that made every girl around me blush uncontrollably and fawn like a lovesick puppy. I was much too egotistical, I am very much aware, but I could not help the fact that I had worked up my reputation and that girls found high interest in me. I shrugged off the topic as I heard Kira grimace under her breath, forcing em to furrow my brows.

"And why should I do that?" She slurred, her voice soft and teasing. "Oh wait, forgive me, I would hate to let your cousin walk in on us again!" Kira barked. I rolled my eyes, plopping back down on the mattress and groaning.

"Because I need to see you, Kira." After this, I was very much aware she would cave in within the quickness, but I was rather surprised by the blunt statement I received.

"Oh, go fuck your cousin." She snapped angrily, hanging up. What a day. I heaved a long, tired sigh and tossed my phone at the edge of my bed. It may sound trashy, call me a man whore if you please, but I am dying for a little opposite gender attraction, seeing as though Avalon interrupted me to begin with. I lurched back up for my phone, pulling it on to Avalon's contact and tugging at my lower lip. Maybe a cheesy, gay filled, pussy sounding message will get her to talk to me? Or at least look at me for a solitary second. Might as well give it a try.

"Avalon,

I know we have not talked to each other in a while. But I want you to know, that I have been doing a lot of thinking lately and I want you to know that I miss you..Not 'I regret what happened, or I want to see you again', just..I miss you. It's so strange to think that someone I knew so well, for such the smallest of time, is now a total stranger to me. To know that I go entire days without thinking about you for a single, solitary moment. Most of the time, I let myself forget because it is so much easier. But then I find something. A picture, a memory, a song and the full weight of what's been lost piles down on top of me. Part of me wants to see you again, to kiss you again. But all of those feelings become empty thoughts when I look back now, remembering that love is not always what it seems. It is just so easy to forget. But this isn't regret, we had our reasons and they were as valid as ever, but back at the start, we did not need any reasons to spill our emotions towards each other. We just did.

The reasons came at the end, everything since then has been about reasons. And that is good. It means that one day, I will find someone who I won't have to say goodbye to. And having them love you back. That's all. I guess what I am saying is, is I hope things are good with you. I hope everything is great. But just a small part of me hopes, that you still remember what it was like before all of the reasons. And that you miss me too.."

I read over it a couple times, my thumb barley grazing over send. I was debating whether or not I should look like a damn pansy or possibly keep my reputation and continue being a complete jackass. The choices both seemed so easy. I sighed, shaking my head. I couldn't bring myself to send it, because I had no reason to. People like me do not love people like her and that was as easy as ever to realize. I felt silly for even thinking I could, adding the fact we have only argued instead of having a full, real conversation. I pressed delete and lied back, again. Why were things so hard? Why couldn't I just love with no regrets and be the man who I have wanted to be my entire life, an actual man. I am eighteen. I am gradually finding my way to college soon, and all I give a shit about is Kayde, Tanner, Blake, and sex. Sooner or later, I had to grow up and be a man. I had to find an interest in someone who I could trust. Whether it was Kira, Avalon, or some girl I meet in the long run; I had to grow up. And quite frankly, I am not sure if I am ready to be involved in such an act. Mainly because I have never felt love the way people do, because growing up, I was not loved enough to understand. I blame my father for that, because my mother was a kind, caring woman and would risk her life for me without a doubt. But I never saw her enough to love her in return, and god damn, I wish I could have. Because maybe, if I had that slight affection in my life, I would be different. I would care, smile, laugh, and love. As cliche as it sounds, I wanted it more than anything. And I wanted Avalon more than anything. But some times, we cannot get everything we want. No matter how spoiled we are.