Staying With The Bad Boy For Two Months

Out With a Bang: 23

"Try not to think about you, but it ain't workin'.
Why put out a fire when it's still burnin'?"

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"This is too much," I began, clamming up nervously. "You cannot just spring this on me and act like things are just going to be rainbows and sparkles. Alec, you just held me under my will after I directly told you to quit!" He brought his hands to his face and sighed heavily.

"I know." He stated bluntly, looking away after his arms returned to his sides.

I shook my head and scoffed. "No, no you do not."

"That wasn't me, Avalon."

"You think?" He clenched his jaw and glanced at me angrily. I knew I was aggravating him, but it was true.

"I love you, for the last damn time. And I am not saying it again. So you can either say it back or return upstairs and pretend this never happened. Your go." At this point, I already knew the answer. I knew what to say and what I should say. But it was not as easy as he made it.

"Alec,"

"No. I'm not going to listen to you sob about how you love me but think it's better to be friends, because I know that's what you want to say. But truthfully, I am done. I want you and only you. For fucks sake, I love you, Avalon. People like me do not say that to people like you." I furrowed my eyebrows, crossing my arms across my chest.

"People like me?" He tilted his head upwards and groaned.

"Give it a rest, will you? Stop making everything I say negative. You know what I mean." I looked down, biting my lower lip softly.

"I'm leaving in two weeks. I will never see you again. So you, Alec, can give it a rest. I'm not your type and you know that fair and square. So please, stop making me feel like I actually mean something to you.."

"You're right." I closed my eyes. "God, you are so fucking stupid. You do not mean something to me. You mean everything to me. Satisfied? Or should I keep going?" He grimaced, slamming his fist down on the counter. I winced and watched as he flinched in pain but continued to stare me directly in the eyes. For the slightest moment, I felt like I was going to get lost in them. Until he lurched his body forwards and clutched his fingertips against my cheeks, slamming his lips against mine harshly. I didn't pull away. I didn't even move. I just kissed back, trying as best as I possibly could to keep from melting. Something about a boy being so demanding that just turns me into mush. Maybe it is just the whole 'badboy' concept. Who knows. Hell, who even cares. The fact of the matter was that his lips were on mine and I loved it. I loved it so much that I pulled away and said the words I never would have imagined flowing out of my mouth.

"I love you more." Out with a Bang, in with a boom.

"What's going on in here?" Olivia raised her voice, standing on the steps with her right hand clutched firmly against the railing. Alec snapped his attention towards her and smiled. She, on the other hand, was completely lost and confused. I stared down awkwardly. She hadn't been standing there the whole time..had she?

"Mom," Alec spoke.

"Avalon, may I speak to you please?" I paused, holding my breath and looking back at Alec pointedly. He tilted his head to the side and shrugged. "Avalon." Olivia spoke, her voice raised the slightest bit. I weakly stumbled away from Alec and towards Olivia with a shy grin. She turned around and began to walk upstairs. 

 Before I knew it, Olivia was closing the door behind me hastily, her lips pursed. "Sit down." She stated. I took a seat on the bed, knotting my fingers together to keep from hyperventilating. "Alec didn't tell you about his past, did he?" She muttered. 

"About the adoption, you mean?" I stammered quietly. She looked down, shaking her head disappointingly. 

"No," Olivia snapped. This was the first time I had ever seen her upset. The first time she had not been smiling around me. "about the crimes he committed and the numerous amount of fights he got into." My heart skipped a beat and I quickly gulped. Olivia noticed this. "I take it he didn't. Well, if you two are as close as I think you are,"

"Oliv-"

"Do not interrupt me, Avalon." I shut up real quick, snapping my perception downwards in guilt. "Alec was a troublemaker, a big one at that. He had a habit of stealing and there was really nothing we could do about it." Olivia frowned. "But the fights he was apart of..they were not in order to be dominant, they were for his pleasure. He always came home late at night, busted up, nearly beaten to death and drunk beyond belief. That was many years ago. I know he still fights sometimes, and the only reason why he doesn't get hurt is because he is a monster. My son has laid a few on me in the past for arguing with him.." She took a few steps closer, pivoting her jaw upwards and showing me a thin scar that ran towards the back of her neck. My pace quickened. "I just do not think you should be around him, that's all. He is dangerous. Sometimes he gets out of control and I do not want him to take his anger out on you, Avalon. There is no telling what could happen." Tears rimmed below my eyelids and I choked up, looking away from her scar in attempt to force myself not to believe her.

"But.." I mumbled, shutting my eyes tightly.

"Do as you wish. But I could never see you get hurt, Avalon. I would blame myself for it and right now that is the last thing I want to do." She sighed, turning around and walking back towards the door. "Goodnight." With that, she walked out. Instead of grieving, I only felt anger bubble up in the pit of my stomach. Anger that he would lie to me like that.

For the rest of that solemn night, I closed my eyes and shut the world around me off. There was simply no need to stress over it anymore than I already was.