Staying With The Bad Boy For Two Months

Happy For You : 11

  "You and me and our big dreams, falling in love. We were two kids in the backseat, all fearless and young."

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 I took a seat on the back porch, staring up at the star littered sky. My heart felt empty, even though I was quite sure that it..we..would never, ever, happen. It was common sense. People like Alec do not fall in love with people like me. Compared to him, I am an ancient sea monster and he is a Greek god. I sighed, a shiver running down my spine. The cold was nipping at my legs, making me tighten my cardigan around my shoulders. October was coming fast and it was almost idiotic to be wearing shorts at such a month.

"Cold?" Kayde smiled, taking a seat beside me. I glanced over at him and chuckled.

"Not nearly as much as I am upset." I answered truthfully, not expecting pity from him, but comfort. He tossed an arm over my shoulders and sighed.

"Kira is back, I know. I saw her with Alec. It is going to be okay, though, Avi. Me and the boys and Emery are all here for you." Kayde said, tightening his hold on my shoulders to be more reassuring. If I did not know any better, I would like Kayde. He is sweet, funny, caring. Everything a girl should want. But instead, I want the egotistical bad boy. It does not make sense, anymore. Maybe because it is like Blake said..Instead of Alec wanting everything he cannot have, I want it instead. Possibly more. Even though the better part of me hates him.

"What is going to happen between them, Kayde?" I muttered shakily, leaning into him as the night air began to console me. He shook his head, tightening his arms around me gently.

"Do not worry about that, Avi. We are at a party. How about we go find your friend and Tanner, and go somewhere?" I smiled warmly.

"I know the perfect place." I grinned. He pecked my cheek and stood up, holding his hand out for me. I took it and rose to my feet, following him inside. I did not see Emery and Tanner anywhere, which began to worry me entirely. In the corner, I did see Kira and Alec. She was stationed in his lap with a cheeky smile and Alec's arms were wrapped around her, laughing..My heart dropped. I stood for a moment, holding back the tears, until he caught me mid-gaze, his smile faltering just the slightest bit. I forced a sad smile and looked down, feeling Kayde hug me from the side.

"Ignore them, Avi." He whispered. I nodded, allowing Kayde to guide me towards the door, but I couldn't resist. I took another look. I had to, but I wish I hadn't. In all odds, they were holding each-other and smiling and laughing and stealing sneaky kisses. My heart skipped a beat. 

"AVALON!" I heard a voice screech. I whipped myself around, spotting Emery and Tanner clinging onto each other with giggles and kisses. She made her way towards me and chuckled. "You will never believe what I just did." She yipped excitedly. I looked over at Tanner, my eyes narrowing hatefully. But he was just looking down at her with a loving smile, his attention not being taken off of her for merely a fraction of a second. I softened. Emery leaned in closer. "I just rolled some dudes yard with Tanner and Blake and some other person I didn't know and it was amazing. Where have you been?" She smiled. I laughed, looking over at Kayde.

"Nothing, really." Kayde grinned. Emery kissed Tanner one more time, which made me wonder how this even remotely ended up with me being the only one who was secretly in an awful lot of pain and wanted to cry.

"Where is Alec? Why aren't you with Alec? Shouldn't you two be like, making out with each-other by now? By the gods, this is preposterous!" She flailed her hands up and growled. I laughed, shaking my head, even though I was about to start crying any second now.

"He has another significant other, and it is not me. So..no. Anyways, why don't you go get a little sobered up so we can leave, yeah?" I smiled. Her face fell blank and she huffed.

"Never going to leave, I am. Forever, I will stay." She stated confidently. Tanner began to burst out into laughter and my face went pale. Oh my god, no she didn't. Emery frowned as Tanner fell to his knees, clutching his gut.

"E-Em, d-did you just talk like..like YODA?!" I screamed, laughing inconsistently at the fact she even knew what it was. Emery blushed rapidly and laughed rather shyly at the fact. 

"N-No..? Shh. What are you talking about, Avalon." Emery hissed, slapping her hands against her thighs and pacing herself away quickly. I giggled. Tanner stood, wiping away tears from his cheeks and placing a hand on Kayde's shoulder.

"Bruh. Did you hear about Kira coming back? I heard Alec got pretty excited, if you know what I mean." I bit my tongue and held my breath. Kayde nodded, biting his lower lip awkwardly. Tanner winked at me and trotted off behind Emery like a lovesick puppy. 

"I'm sorry, Avi." Kayde frowned. I shrugged, shaking the topic off with a fake smile. "Do you want me to take you back to Alec's? I understand that this is the last place you probably want to be right now." 

"Alec drove me, and I guess he forgot about me.." I laughed, wiping away a slipped tear that began to roll down my cheek. 

"Stay right here. I am going to go get the keys from Tanner, I will be right back." He smiled. I nodded and watched as he ran in the direction Emery and Tanner went off to. For a moment, I stood there awkwardly. Not really sure what to do. I shouldn't have let a boy pick me up like this, just to throw me back down. Some would say I was foolish for even allowing him to kiss me. I would agree with them..

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 "Thanks for the ride, Kayde. For everything." I smiled, unbuckling my seat belt. He nodded and looked over at me. "See you tomorrow." I said, opening the car door, but he pulled me back. I raised my eyebrow and laughed. 

"Goodnight, Avi." He muttered, hugging me. I hugged him back and took a quick intake. After our little hugging session ended, I released and got out, closing the door behind me after waving goodbye. Alec's car was here, so I assumed he had forgotten about me. But Olivia and Jackson were not here. I frowned, really let down by the fact. I needed someone to talk to. 

After opening the front door and stepping inside, I leaned against the cold, wooden frame and let out a series of breaths but nothing really helped. I still began to cry. I still let myself cry, and it was unbearable. The pain in my chest made me hurt even more, and these months were barley even whispering by. I needed Alec, whether he cared or not. I paced myself upstairs and down the hall. The light from his bedroom was on, I could see under the door. I wiped away the tears and twisted the handle, carefully pushing it open. To my surprise, the night just kept on getting worse and worse.

"Fuck." Alec grunted, pushing himself off of Kira. I closed my eyes and heaved a breath, holding onto my arms to refrain from screaming. I couldn't do it, anymore. I cried right there until I pushed up the nerve to run. Like I always did, I ran from the problem instead of saying I'm sorry for intruding, have fun and use protection! Not that I could ever say such a thing, but who knows. Maybe if he hadn't of kissed me I would have.