Our Life! Book #2 (Sequel to "Who to Choose?") **COMPLETED**

Chapter: 19

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**Edited 10/24/15**

Chapter: 19

Allison Hall

As we drove to the hospital, I stared out of the passenger side window. I just can't believe that Justin would do that! Why try and kill yourself over me? There must be some other issue going on that was causing him to act crazy. I know that he wasn't the same guy that I've know my whole life. He was more distant, mysterious, and slightly crazy. Maybe slightly was a bad word, he was pretty far out there crazy.

Neither Nathan, nor I spoke the whole ride to the hospital. I didn't know what to say and I'm pretty sure he didn't either. I was still p*ssed at him for being an a**hole earlier.  He had no right to imply that stuff about me. Maybe he didn't imply it, maybe it was the hormones.. Life is so complicated, that is why I run when things get tough. That's why I want to run now, but I know that I can't. I will not do it this time. I can't be like my real dad and leave and expect everything to be hunky dory.

Don't get me wrong. I am excited to get to know my real dad. I am still mad that he never decided to visit me until now. He knew all along and never came once. It makes me sad.

The car came to a stop, pulling my attention straight forward. "We're here." Nathan's voice sounded strained and helpless.

"Okay." I said before placing my hand on the door knob of my car. His hand wrapped around my forearm causing me to turn and look at him. His face looked sad, but you could tell that he was trying to be strong.

"I don't want to fight anymore." I heard him whisper.

"You were being a jerk, you know?" I mumbled.

"I know I was." He took a deep breath before continuing, "I don't want to lose you Allison. I know you're hurting right now and you have so much going on, but I want to be there for you and help you. That's if you'll let me."

I took a deep breath and finally looked up at him. This whole time I've been looking at my ring on my finger.  "Nathan."

"Yes Allison?" He was reluctant to answer me.

"I should have been more considerate and let you in. I shouldn't keep things like that to myself. I know that both of us haven't got along with Justin, but I still care about him. Him basically trying to kill himself over me, I just can't..." I was about to start crying again.  

He put his finger under my chin making me look at him before he said, "I love you Allison and I'm here for you. I know you care for him. There is something there that you and I will never have."

"What are you trying to say?" I croaked out. I was about to start hyperventilating.  He stayed quiet. "Answer me Nathan. Are you trying to breakup with me?"

"Damn it!" I growled. I shoved open the door and got out. I started walking off from him, when I felt him pull me back to him.

"Allison you are so damn stubborn at times, you know that?" I could picture him rolling his eyes right now. "I wasn't breaking up with you and when you said that it caught me off guard. I didn't know what to say. I meant you have a bond with him that we don't.  God, this is sounding even worse. I guess I mean you know each other better than we know each other. I don't even know what I'm saying. I'll shut up now.." He mumbled that last part.