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Nakakinis talaga! Ugh. Bakit ko ba hinayaan ang sarili kong mahulog sa kanya? Mahulog sa best friend ko?
Tahimik lang akong nakaupo dito sa swing sa playground ng aming bahay. Boring. Yeah thats how you could describe my day.
Lalabas sana ako ngayon and gagala with Venice but hindi yun natuloy kasi may lakad pa raw sila ng mommy niya. Sayang nga eh. Cool pa naman yung get up ko ngayon. Yung boyish na get up. All black panga eh. Ewan ko ba. Napagtripan ko eh. Uso kasi tong get up nato sa London. Black na crop top that says "Bitch mode: On" and a black high waist shorts together with a black combat boots. Oh yeah. Regalo lang tong set nato ni Jasmine sa akin. And I love it. Ngayon ko pa nga lang to nasuot eh.
"Nalulunod na ako" may bigla nalang umupo sa tabi ko and when I turned around to look at the person who said that ay walang iba kundi si Clarrence. I just rolled my eyes.
Nalulunod ka? Eh ako, nahuhulog.
"Anong pinagsasabi mo diyan?" Pagtataray ko. Eh bakit ba? Trip ko eh.
"Taray naman oh. Eh kasi po, ang lalim ng iniisip mo" sabi niya at tinignan ako. Biglang bumilis yung tibok ng puso ko.
Is it me.. Or parang iba yung ngiti ni Renz ngayon? It's not his usual grin. Ewan. Nabo-bother ako. Para siyang malungkot. Like he's just trying to smile. But why!?
"Are you okay?" Bigla ko nalang natanong sa kanya. Tumingin siya sa akin at bumuntong hininga.
"I don't know. Malungkot lang ako ngayon. I don't usually feel this kind of stuff" yeah, I know. He's the funny and bubbly one. Diba?
"Bakit ka malungkot?" Tanong ko. He's always there for me so it's time to do the same thing for him.
"I'm falling for someone I can't have" malungkot niya akong tinignan. Bigla naman akong naawa. But.. He's falling for someone?
"--no. I'm inlove with someone I can't have" dagdag niya pa. Nasaktan ako. Renz, why can't it be me? Ako nalang please?
"G-ganun ba? S-sino naman y-yun?" Ok. Hindi naman halatang nagstu-stutter ako, right? And that was sarcastic.
"Someone...you know" sabi niya at tumayo. I know the girl? Who the ef!?
"Oh" lang ang tangi kong nasabi. Tumayo narin ako at pumunta nalang sa loob ng bahay. I went to the kitchen and drank water. I needed to think things. Ayaw ko na ng ganito. Ayaw ko nang masaktan.
"H-hey. Can we move our practice tomorrow? I've got plans right now" he said and showed me his car keys. What can I do? I nodded and hinatid na siya papunta sa sasakyan niya.
"Take care" I said and kissed him on his cheeks, he smiled and nodded.
"Yes boss" best friends. I think Crystal and Clarrence are better off as friends. Just friends.
Because I wasnt in the mood for doing anything, I went back to my room and jumped my way to my bed. Ugh! I need some time with for myself. I needed a break from this heartache.
I dialled Venice's number but she wasnt answering so I called Jazz. But like Venice, she too wasnt answering my calls. So I gave up. I closed my eyes and wished na sana makatulog nalang ako.
Nagising ako because someone was knocking on my door. Agad-agad ko naman iyong binuksan only to find Venice there crying. Niyakap niya agad ako nung nakita niya ako.
"Bakit ka umiiyak Ven? May nangyari ba sa'yo?" Naguguluhan kong tanong. Hindi siya sumagot at umiyak lang ng umiyak. Pinaupo ko siya sa kama ko at hinahagod hagod ang kanyang likuran. Tinawag ko yung isa sa mga maids namin at pinakuha ng tubig.
Nung medyo tumahan na si Venice ay pinainom ko agad siya ng tubig bago ko tinanong kung ano yung nangyari sa kanya. Hindi muna siya sumagot. Huminga siya ng malalim at tinignan ako mata sa mata. Dun na ako kinabahan.
"C-Crystal" her voice cracked and then she cried again. "I'm sorry. M-mahal ko siya" she said and hugged me so tight. Wala akong naiintindihan sa mga nangyayari or kung ano yung mga pinagsasabi niya.
"What are you talking about?" Tanong ko. Umiling siya at humikbi. "Kami na.. Kami na n-ni Clarrence Cry.. Crystal. Kanina lang" sabi niya at umiyak ulit. It felt like my world crashed, break, and everything. S-sila na! Gusto pala nila yung isat-isa? Bakit hindi yun sinabi sa akin ni Renz?
"G-ganun ba? Co-congrats" I gave her my sweetest smile. But I know it was fake. She knew it too. My voice cracked and I was at the urge of crying. I felt hurt at betrayed. They were both my best friend. Venice knew that I was inlove with Renz noon pa man. But if that makes her happy, then I should be happy too. Even if it's really hard.
I turned around so she could not see me wiping away my tears. I faced her again while grinning at her.
"I'm happy for the both of you." Great Crystal. Yeah. Masochist kanaman diba? Sige. Enjoy getting hurt. Sabi ni Brain.
"I-I'm so sorry Crsystal. M-matagal na niya a-akong ni-nililigawan. Na-natakot lang akong sabihin sa'yo to k-kasi baka magalit ka. S-sorry talaga" and again, she started crying. I tapped her shoulders to comfort her.
"Ano ka ba. It's okay. Tanggap ko na na hanggang best friend nalang talaga kaming dalawa. And -- I-I'm trying to move on" sabi ko at umiwas sa kanya ng tingin.
She shook her head and cried a river again. After that, umuwi narin siya. All smiles ko siyang hinatid palabas ng bahay, but when she was gone, I started crying. It frckn hurts. So much. It kills me inside. Why did I have to fall for him? I was crying all by myself dito sa labas ng bahay. Siguro yung mga guards na nandito sa bahay ay nagtataka narin. I never cried in front of them.
Suddenly, I saw a familiar car na papunta dito sa harapan ko, it was Ralph's car. When he saw me crying, agad-agad siyang bumaba and hugged me. Hugged me so tight.
"I heard what happened. Oh god. Crystal, I thought he was never capable of hurting you. I'll never avoid you Crys, not anymore. I'll stay beside you always and help you move on, okay?" he said. And I nodded. I can't do anything now.
"Learn to love me too, Crystal. Please" he said which made me look at him. I was desperate of moving on. So I said
"Yes" he hugged me and kissed my forehead. Maybe it was time to let go of Renz. It was time to move on and open my heart to someone else. Open it to the person standing infront of me.
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Short update.
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