The Bad Girl's Depression

Chapter (Y) - Your endless love

"Awwww!" Napahawak siya sa gilid ng labi niya. Nagulat siya ng bigla itong dumugo.

"Bakit mo ako sinuntok?"

"That's for leaving without permission you bstard."

"You could at least slap me not punch me!"

"You're so... unfair." Naupo ulit ako sa upuan at yumuko. Biglang sumakit ang ulo ko. Siguro dahil ito sa pag-iyak ko kanina. I want to ask him so many questions but I don't have the mood.

Kinuha niya ang isa pang upuan at pinwesto niya ito sa harap ko kaya magkaharap kami ngayon. Hinawakan niya ang dalawang kamay ko.

"I'm sorry Genevic."

"Could you please cut that 'sorry' thing. I had enough of that sht all day."

Huminga siya ng malalim. "Hindi pa sana ako babalik pero pinakiusapan ako ni Marvel."

"Marvel planned all of this?"

"Well, partly yes. Actually he needed my help to organize this suprise for you. Hindi niyo ito date ni Marvel. Date natin 'to."

"Crazy." Tinaboy ko ang mga kamay niya at tumingin sa ibang direksyon. I'm starting to get pissed again. Why do people always lie before they say the truth? It's fckn annoying.

"Hahaha! Alam kong nagtaka ka kung bakit ganto ulit ang arrangment. Gusto ko kasing bumalik tayo sa gabing iyon. Hindi man siya ngayon kasing ganda noong una, gusto ko lang malaman mo na that was the most memorable night I had in my life and I was so happy I got to spend it with you."

"Alam mo bang bago namin ito pagplanuhan ay ginulpi niya ako. Haha!"

"Natatawa ka pa talaga. Baliw ka ba?"

"No it's not like that. Inis na inis kasi saakin si Marvel kasi inahas daw kita. Kung bakit ko daw hinayaang mahulog ako sayo. Wala daw ako sakanya respeto. Wala akong utang na loob sakanya. Oo, inaamin ko. Tinraydor ko siya. Pero sinunod ko lang kung ano ang nilalaman ng puso at isipan ko. Masyado na akong maraming ipinaraya para sakanya. At hindi ko na hinayaan na pati ang babaeng nagpapaligaya saakin, ay ipaparaya ko din sakanya."

"What?!"

"But don't worry, we're okay now." I didn't say a word. Umupo na ako dahil gutom na ako. Umupo na din siya sa harap ko.

After that we ate. Talked and talked about a lot of things.. Made fun of some things that really made my stomach ache because of laughter. Damn! He's like a god of jokes. He never runs out of interesting stories too.

Staring at him makes me realize that I am really in love with this bstard. Just going back to the days when I met him, when we we're together, I can't remember the part where my feelings started for him. It was just like magic. Funny I could still remember the times I hated him for being so positive. When the truth is, he was the reason why I learned to be positive again. And he's smile? It's one of a kind.

*snap fingers*

"Hey! Is there something wrong?"

"Ha? What? No. Nothing. Oh I forgot to ask you were have you been? Why didn't you tell me you were leaving?" Medyo nag-iba ang ekspresyon ng mukha niya at uminom muna ng wine.
"I'm... ughh. I'm trying to distant myself to you and forget my feelings for you." I felt like something pierced into my heart. Hindi ko ipinahalata yun sakanya. I smiled to him instead.

I feel disappointed. Umasa ba ako? Damn! Buti nalang hindi pa niya alam na may nararamdaman na ako sakanya. Kung hindi ako ang magmumukhang kawawa.

We remained silent for a while until he broke it once again.

"You see, people know me as the goody-two-shoes type of man. I don't get into fights, I'm not a Casanova, I usually help the needy, I volunteer in some organization but they just don't know that I still possess bad attributes."