--I know I'm supposed to let go of the things that hurt me, but what if the things that help me are the only things that make me happy. But lets face it, I was never meant to me happy, might as well hold on.
--How to kill someone; Hold their hand and then never touch their skin again, See them nearly everyday and pretend they don't exist, And like everything you ever said to them was a lie.
--I am honestly so lost. I'm constantly second guessing myself. I don't know if the path I'm on right now is the right one.
--An ocean. When it hits, I struggle to keep my head above the water. It's overwhelming and every single moment feels like I'm one breath away from drowning. It's so big, so vast, and it extends further than I can see. The water is dark and heavy. And the more I struggle against it all, the higher the waters get. Anxiety.
--Do you ever just know that you're not as important to some people as you use to be? Like you use to talk all the time and even if you didn't talk the entire day, they'd still shoot you at least one message, hoping that your day is going well. But now you don't even get that message. Days go by and you don't talk once. And it eventually sets in that you're just not as important to them as you use to be. And then a million questions go through your head,"what did I do wrong?"-"Did they get tired of me?"-"Maybe I shouldn't have talked about myself so much. Maybe I should have asked them how they were more. Maybe I should have just shut up and let them talk." But you'll never really know what you did wrong.. Because they leave without any explanation.
--Sometimes when I'm just sitting there, doing nothing, I can feel the pulse where I want to do it. Sometimes in my hand, in my leg, in my wrist. in my shoulder, in my hips. Everywhere, a constant pulse. Maybe..Just..One...
Idk just thinking about some stuff.
