I'm sick of smiling. I'm sick of telling everyone I'm ok. I'm sick of trying to make myself believe it. I'm not... I'm doing worse than I have for a long time! The thoughts are back. The behaviors are back. It's just got really hard again. I just want it all to stop!! I want to be normal. I don't want to be like this anymore. I can't keep this up forever.. It's too hard. I can't!
