I didn't wanna get better so I didn't. and then I decided I did. and then I was. and then I fell again bc I realized getting better is a process that I have to do every day for the rest of my life. I have to make the choice to not be that way every goddamn morning. I don't get to choose once and it all magically goes away. This thing.. It never goes away, I'll never actually be done with it. it's always gonna be there. I just have to choose to see past it and notice all the good things I have, too.
