I'm Gonna Miss You

Chapter 41: Ring! Ring!

This was it. Today was the day I tell Kyan Davine what had been going on between Dylan and I for these past few months. I had finally gathered enough courage to stop all the lying and just come right out and say it. I told Dylan of my plan and instantly he brightened, more excited than I was. Then again, I wasn't that excited to get yelled at and possibly shun by my best friend. Right now though, it didn't matter what was going to happen, I was going to tell Kyan and this secret was going to be over and done with.

I was waiting outside the drama room, pacing back and forth behind the closed door. By some grant of luck, Mr. Fortsen let the actors and actresses out earlier than the rest of the class. This worked to my advantage as I had more time to think about what I was going to say. Although, I had decided on this earlier within the week, I had never taken the time to stop and go through my speech for today. No matter what I recited in my head, nothing seemed right, and I wanted this to be perfect. Look at me, with the way I was overthinking, it seemed as if I was going to confess my love for her instead of just telling her I liked my neighbour. 

With a blank slate taking the place of my mind, I lost the will to continue with this charade and started to doubt my plan. I didn't have any speech, I didn't know what I was going to say, I had zero source of encouragement-- I was not going to do this. I give up. I can tell her some other day. She doesn't have to know right now. It can wait. It won't harm anyone. Yeah, I'll tell her some other time.

Nodding my head, I turned to take a step away from the doors, but my body just wouldn't let me put my foot down. No, I have to tell her now. I need to get this over with. I can't keep hiding this secret from my best friend. It's gonna hurt her if she finds out way after everyone else has. Plus, I've been holding my tongue for so long, I need a friend to scream with whenever Dylan did something cute. 

But what if she doesn't approve? What if she's against this whole idea and tells me I can't date him? Then what do I do? Wait, why would she be against this? She would love this. Her best friend dating her boyfriend's best friend? Think of the double dates! Who wouldn't want that? Besides, whether or not she approves, I won't be able to alter my feelings for Dylan, so she'll just have to make her peace with it. 

Ring! Ring!

The echo of the school bell sent a jolt down my spine as I jumped from shock. In my state of disorientation, I turned and readied myself to run through the hallway and as far away from here as possible.

"Ly!" Kyan called from the door.

I turned to see a bouncy teen walking over to me. "Kee!" I imitated her enthusiasm to cover up my own true feelings.

"What are you still doing out here?" She made her way to me, her books in hand. "I thought you would've left since you got a off few minutes early."

"I was, uhm, heading out. I-I just happened to, you know, to pass by when y-you came out." I was terrible at lying, I know.

Hopefully she was terrible at detecting lies. "What?"

"Okay, yeah, that was a lie." I cleared my throat and dropped my gaze. "I need to tell you something." Kyan stared at me, her brows crinkling together. "It's important." She straightened at this. 

"Okay, sure." 

"Obviously, you know Dylan." I began.

"Yeah, I do." She said with a laugh.

"I told you that we haven't been talking," She nodded. "And that might not have been entirely true."

"What?"

"We might have bee-" I was cut off by another round of ringing, but one entirely different from the school bell earlier.

Ring! Ring!