Mixed Emotions (Ray Ray Love Story)

Chapter 21- Taking It Slow

Ray'sPOV

"I can't Ray" she said with a hint of sadness in her eyes. 

 My heart started to ache and I wanted to cry. "Why not?" I asked in a cracked voice.

"Ray how are we gonna do this? What if we get caught? And what about Trevor? He doesn't deserve this"

"Just leave him" I said.

"It's not that easy Ray. He's the one that I shared my first kiss with, I gave him my virginity, we even lost our first child. It's not that easy throw everything with him for a little crush I have for you"

I gotta admit that kinda hurt. I guess she saw the hurt in my eyes because she apologized, "I'm sorry Ray I didn't mean to be harsh but it's the truth. What if this is just a phase, what if this is just you being lonely and need someone" she said.

"Léannah, I know this isn't a phase. I swear on my life Léannah, I love you"

"I wish I could say the same Ray but I don't know if I love you yet but I do like you, I really do"

She looked away from me. I knew she felt bad for turning me down but I can't blame her. I would probably turn me down if I had a boyfriend like Trevor. "How bout' we take it slow?" I asked hoping she would agree.

I saw a smiled creep on her face and I couldn't help but smile too. She finally face me and looked me in my eyes. "Does this answer your question" she said then kissed me passionately.

I felt sparks in this kiss. This was more than a like kiss, this kiss meant she loved me just as much as I did. We pulled away and she started blushing like crazy. "Awwn I made Léannah blush" I teased and she blushed even harder.

"Shut up" she said looking away.

I turned her face towards mine with my fingers. "I love you, don't forget that" I said then pecked her lips.

She nodded and gave me a hug. I'm so much closer to getting my dream girl.

Léannah'sPOV

It's been a week since me and Ray decided to take it slow. It's like we're in the 4th grade. We sneak kisses whenever no one is looking, we always isolate ourselves from the group at school just to be alone and talk but we don't show affection just in case we get caught. I swear everyday I fall more and more for him. I get butterflies when I hear his name or whenever he's around. I blush hard when he compliments me and I act all nervous whenever he's around.

I know it's fucked up to be cheating on Trevor with my brother but I can't help it. I love Trevor but I like Ray and they both treat me right. It's like having the best of both worlds. Trevor is sweet and sorta innocent and he's smart, sweet, caring, romantic and then there's Ray who is freaky, more of a bad boy, the total opposite of me which makes me attracted to him even more.

Anyways, I also think that Chresanto knows something's going on. I just have a strong feeling he knows but I'm not sure. Lately Ray and I have been a little careless. I fell asleep in Ray's bed with only his oversized wife beater and no bottoms. His room was hella hot that night so he had his shirt off. Dad came home that morning and started yelled at us for being in bed together in a inappropriate way but he apologized that night saying he was just stressed out from work, that I had a boyfriend so nothing could be going and he was over reacting so we got lucky.

"Baby, what do you think little TJ would look like?" Trevor asked.

Here I am hanging out with my boyfriend and I'm thinking of another guy and the fact that he asked about our child doesn't make me feel any better. Time to put my acting skills to the test. "I think she would have my long curly hair, your beautiful dreamy eyes, your caramel complexion and your pink full lips." I said and pecked him on his lips.