Runaway

Kabanata 5

After I texted Mom I started driving to my Dad's office. Medyo malabo ang aking paningin dahil na rin sa luha na nagbabadya nanamang tumulo. Shit. I hope I can go there safe.

Sampung minuto na lamang bago ako makarating kay Dad ng biglang tumunog ang phone ko.

"Anak, huwag ka ng dumiretso sa office ng Dad mo. Out of town siya para asikasuhin ang business natin. What's wrong? You can talk to me." ramdam na ramdam ko na nag aalala saakin si Mommy.

"Mom" iyak kong tugon sakanya. "Nasaan ka po? Pupuntahan kita"

"God, what's wrong? I'm here at the mall. I will wait for you here"

"Okay"

Di katagalan ay nakarating na ako sa mall. Pinuntahan ko na si Mommy. I saw her inside the Starbucks waiting for me.

I immediately run to her while crying.

"Anak, andito ka-" niyakap ko si Mom ng mahigpit.

"Mom ang sakit. Ang sakit sakit po" wika ko ng hindi pa bumibitiw sa yakap.

"okay, let's sit first and tell me what's wrong" I nod at her.

I will tell Mom what happened. I know she will understand me. Sayang at wala si Daddy rito.

May mga tao na hindi sinasabi ang problema nila sa kanilang magulang, well iba ako. Gusto ko sila unang makaalam ng pinagdadaanan ko kasi alam ko na hidi nila ako huhusgahan dahil anak nila ako at dahil mahal nila ako. Isa pa, close talaga ako kay Mommy at Daddy. Kahit na sobrang busy nila they will find time for me.

"Mom, I caught Greg cheating on me" nabasag ang boses ng naalala ko kung paano ako ipagtabuyan ni Greg at kung paano niya ipagtanggol si Shim. Mom didn't say anything. She just look at me. I know that look, she wants me to continue.

"I saw him kissing other girl in his room" umiiyak nanaman ako. Buong araw na lang ba akong iiyak?

"I saw him kissing Shim. Greg and Shim, they're kissing." nabasag ulit ang boses ko sa pangalawang pagkakataon. Mentioning their name gives me some chest pain.

Nakita ko kung paano namuo ang galit sa mga mata ni Mom. I understand her. Sino ba namang hindi magagalit? Bestfriend at boyfriend ko pa yung gumawa ng ganitong kataksilan saakin!

Malapit si Shim at Greg sa pamilya ko especially Shim because we we're bestfriend. I thought we we're, not anymore. Anak na ang turing ni Mommy kay Shim, kapatid na ang turing ko sakanya dahil na rin sa ako lang ang nag iisang anak ng mga magulang ko. Si Greg ay malapit rin kay Mom especially kay Daddy. Pareho silang malapit saakin at sa pamilya ko pero sinira nila lahat ng yun!

Nagulat ako ng hawakan ni Mom ang kamay ko.

"Irene, don't give them the satisfaction to see you suffer. Mahirap, I know pero kaya mo. Siguro kaya nangyari to dahil tapos na yung papel nila sa buhay mo" ngiti ni Mom saakin.

"Mom, what will I do?" ikinagulat ko ng wala ng tumulong luha sa mga mata ko. That's enough. I already cried alot.

"You know what to do baby. I trust you." Ngiting muli ni Mom saakin.

I know Mom too well. Gusto niya na ako ang mag isip ng dapat kong gawin. She want's me to learn from this experience.

Those few words from Mom makes me feel at ease. Those lines makes me feel comfortable. I'm glad that I already stop crying but I know when we're home, I will cry again in my room. Hays.

"By the way, Irene me and your Dad already talked about your condo. Pwede ka ng lumipat doon anytime you want" masayang ibinalita saakin ito ni Mommy.

"Really?! Thank you Mom!"

I know Mom did that on purpose. She want's me to be busy to stop thinking about Greg and Shim. Hopefully it'll work.

I love my parents so much. Tatlong taon ang tanda ni Daddy kay Mommy. Dad is 43 years old while Mom is 40. Mukha nga silang hindi tumatanda. Life really begins at 40 huh?

Mom and I decided to go home. I want to relax. I'm so tired from crying all day.

When we're in the house I immediately run to my room.

I check my phone. Hoping that I will receive a text from him.

I have new messages. My heart is beating so fast.

I saw Sophie, Marie, Ryan, Shim and Greg's name on the screen.

Una kong binuksan ang menasahe ni Sophe.

I heard what happened. How are you?

Ang bilis namang kumalat ng balita. I wonder if Greg and Shim already announced to the whole world that they love each other. Fuck.

Marie:
Irene we're here for you.

Ryan:
I will talk to Greg.

Shim:
Can we talk please?

I'm so mad at her. I'm so mad at the both of them. I'm mad at Greg, but I still love him. I must be an idiot. I love him so much. Eventhough it hurts, I still love him.

What if ako talaga yung mali? What if saakin talaga yung may problema? What if he didn't really mean to do that? What if he ask for forgiveness? What if he wants us back? What if he wants me back?

Those what if's is killing me. Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago ko inopen ang kanyang mensahe.

Greg:
I hate you so much.

Nabitawan ko ang aking phone at naiwang nakanganga ang aking bibig. So he hates me alot now?

Oh, he hates me because I slapped her 'bitch girlfriend' multiple times. Well I hate you too.

Sa lahat ng nagtext saakin ay wala akong nireplyan.

I'm fucking crying again. Mali ba ako ng taong minahal?