Shawn Mendes Imagines

Song Reference #2: Secret Love Song (Part II) - Little Mix

Dedicated to my cuddlebug ddmahonerushawn , I hope you like this!!

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"We keep behind closed doors,
every time I see you, I die a little more
stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls,
It'll never be enough... "

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You make your way to the audience from backstage discreetly, trying not to draw attention to yourself. Shawn had told you that you could watch from the side of the stage, but after a security guard discovered you weren't a family member and had no backstage pass, you were forced to join everyone else in the arena.

With the show starting in a minute and a half, every seat in the house was take -- so you had no choice but to stand up against the wall right behind the front row. You got caught, but this security guard was a lot more understanding and allowed you to stay.

It wasn't long before every light went out, the only illumination coming from the glowing stage lights, and every voice in the arena screeches in excitement and bliss.

You were nervous for him.

It had been almost a year since the two of you started dating, and Shawn asked very politely about a month in-- when he wouldn't pose for a selfie with you --if you could keep quiet about your relationship for now.

"For now" turned into ten months, and you still avoid publicly tweeting him or walking around with him in public. You follow along mainly because you almost understand where he's coming from, even though he never explained his reasoning.

Of course, there are many reasons, afraid of paparazzi following you everywhere, upset fans, and a big-ass promotion for reporters every time they see you two having some sort of argument. But you knew the main reason was because you would most certainly get criticized and hurt, and he wanted to protect you from that at all costs.

Shawn steps out onto the stage in a black t-shirt and jeans after a big dramatic entrance with smoke and lights, his guitar slung over his shoulder as he grins widely, and people in the row right in front of you begin to scream and cry at the sight of him.

He runs up to the microphone and looks like he was about to immediately start singing, but he takes a moment to glance on the side of the stage. Up as close as you were, you could see the look of confusion that washed over his face when he didn't see you there.

You try to wave, jump up and down, get his attention-- but it was hard when all the other one-hundred thousand screaming teenage girls in the arena were doing the same thing.

Scanning the crowd, he finally spotted you, and you could see his eyes light up even from far away.

He smiles slightly, giving you a little nod before strumming his guitar and returning his eyes to the crowd, beginning to sing "I Don't Even Know Your Name."

A glance-- it almost felt too unreal. He hardly ever so much as glances at you out in public, especially around fans. It felt priceless, stolen... you couldn't help but smile your face off.

But you secretly wished that he would just say loudly, his voice echoing through the microphone, "I just wanted to thank my girlfriend Y/N for coming out to watch me tonight... "

But no. That could never happen-- not in this world. Not in a world where everyone sees him as theirs, and have the strong potential of threat. You liked how much he loved the fans, and wanted to protect them and you, and you liked that he would give you a moment like that in a stadium filled with people.