Confused//Nick Bean

Chapter 47

So it's been a month since Nick and the boys went back home and since I lost the baby.It's been really hard.

My life has been miserable. All Nick's fans hate me because Nick rarely broadcasts or is on social media at all and thy think it's all my fault.

He's probably busy fucking around with other girls. He hasn't tried to call me or text me at all and I haven't either.

I talk to Zach like everyday. We are planning for me to come out to his house and film some YouTube videos. We just recently started YouTube.

I don't broadcast a lot because all I get is hate and get reported. I still have some of my fans that have been there with me since day 1.

"Courtney are you ready?"My mom yelled upstairs. "Yes."I replied. We are going to visit my grandma and grandpa in Cali for a week. I was excited to finally get out of Missouri for awhile.

We rode in an uber to the airport and then boarded our flight. It took about 3 hours and we were there.My grandma and grandpa were freaking rich and lived in a big house in Hollywood.

I used to go their and stay with them during the summer.It was a lot of fun until I started driving and my grandma made me drive her to all her yoga classes and book clubs.

We got off our flight. I grabbed my bag and then all of a sudden I got reminded of Nick. Do you know how many times we were at the airport together and on plane rides together during digi.

I tried to forget about him and then I had some girls walk up to me. "Courtney!"They screamed. "Hey!"I said smiling. "Can we get a picture?!!"They said. "Sure!"I said taking pictures with each of them.

"We love you! And forget about the haters!"They said. I gave them all a hug and then my mom waved for me to come on.

They just made my day. I smiled to myself and walked out to find my grandma and grandpa with my mom.

Maybe this trip would help me finally forget about Nick for good.