Confused//Nick Bean

Chapter 62

After the whole talk with Zach and the kiss my mind was racing. It felt so wrong but yet so right.

I was so confused and didn't know what to do. I was about to have a mental break down. These past couple of months I've gone through hell and I'm so tired of having to deal with all this shit.

We were downstairs and Zachs mom April said "I'll be home around 11 Zach. Me and your father are going out."

"Ight mom."He replied. I giggled and they left."So I might have invited Rudan and Nick over."Zach replied covering his face.I guess he thought I was gonna hit him.

I laughed and said "Okay." I couldn't let Nick affect me anymore. "What?"Zach said shaking me. "Are you okay? Is this Courtney?"Zach asked.

I laughed and nodded and said "I'm fine." I can do this I said to myself. I went upstairs and just put on my Nike sports bra and sweatpants. I wasn't really feeling that well so I thought I would just stay in Zachs room.

I heard Nick and Rudan downstairs. Zach called me to come down but I just ignored him and I heard Nick say what's she doing here.

I rolled my eyes and turned on Zachs Tv. I was about to binge watch pretty little liars! I love that show so much.

Zach barged in with Rudan and Nick behind. "Courtney come hang out with us." Rudan said. "Yeah Courtney."Zach said putting his hand on his hip.

"It's okay you guys go hang out.I don't want to bother anyone."I said glancing over at Nick who was obviously staring at my chest the whole time.

I rolled my eyes and turned my attention towards Zach. "Really I'm fine you guys go do whatever you do."I laughed. "Let's go laser tagging!"Zach screamed.

Laser tag was the first time we all really hung out.It was also the first time Nick kissed me. I almost started to cry but I held back the tears. "Are you in?"Rudan asked.

"You sure?"I asked. "Of course!"Rudan said. "Come on Courtney it will be fun!"Zach replied.  "Okay I'm in!"I said standing up. "Zayum Courtney."Rudan said looking me up and down. I laughed and forgot I just had on my sports bra.

I went to my suitcase and put on a white tank top and a blue cardigan. I went into the bathroom and changed into some dark blue skinny jeans and out on my uggs.

I put on some light makeup and pinned my hair back. I sprayed my Justin Bieber perfume on and went downstairs.

"Are you ready yet?"Zach said wanting to go. "Yes."I laughed. Rudan drove his truck here so we all got in. Zach called shotgun. That little shit. Now I was stuck in the back with Nick.

I hope tonight goes good.