When I Grow Up (Seventeen Jeonghan x CLC Seunghee)

Fifteen: When I Get Jealous (Part One)

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Seunghee stays in-door most of the time that week. With the commotion that happened a while ago, her friends have a gap between them for a moment. She knows it's not gonna last long but some things need to fade by time. They only need to wait. It'll only take them a few more days or so.

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She sits by her piano that Saturday. She's feeling down again. Yesterday, she saw Jeonghan with a couple of girls by the parking area of the school. She seldom sees him with a girl but yesterday, he seemed a little excited talking to them. They were all around him, like fan girls and he entertained them well. She could see his smile from where she was and the girls were all giggling and poking at him cheekily. Recalling that scene, she feels her chest tighten. It makes her wanna bang on his door and tell him why he's doing it to her. But she can't. She's in no position to question him. She's no one to him.

Opening the lid of the piano, she starts playing her new song. Her new song for him. And sings solemnly.

"Manyage naega kandamyon
Naega tagakandamyon
Non ottohke saenggak-halgga
Yonggil nael su optgo
Manyage niga kandamyon
Niga ttonakandamyon
Nol ottohke ponaeya halji
Jakku kobi nanun kol
Naega babo gataso
Parabol su baggeman
Omnun gol amado
Wemyonhalchido morul
Ni ma-umgwa tto kuraeso
To morojil sa-iga twelkkabwa
Chongmal pabo gataso
Saranghanda haji
Mo-thanun gon amado
Mannam twiye kidarinun apume
Sulpun nanalturi
Turyowoso-in-ga-bwa
Manyage niga ondamyon
Niga taga-ondamyon
Nan ottohke haeyaman halji
Chongmaral su omnun gol
Naega babo gataso
Parabol su baggeman
Omnun gol amado
Wemyonhalchido morul
Ni ma-umgwa tto kuraeso
To morojil sa-iga twelkkabwa
Chongmal pabo gataso
Saranghanda haji
Mo-thanun gon amado
Mannam twiye kidarinun apume
Sulpun nanalturi
Turyowoso-in-ga-bwa
Naega babo gataso
Saranghanda haji mothanun gon amado
Mannam twiye kidarinun apume
Sulpun nanalturi
Turyowoso-in-ga-bwa"

Tears just can't stop falling from her eyes. She wrote this song thinking about him. What is really in store for them? After the number of times she wanted to finally tell him, she ends up falling back and hiding behind her mask. She can't tell him. But what if someone comes after him like those girls yesterday? He's not reserved for her. They don't have any connection with each other. They're just old classmates turned neighbors. What good does it make for her? What advantage does it give her? He can't fall in love with her simply by just that. And she can't force him to love her back, that's the sad truth.

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She doesn't walk to school with Jeonghan on Monday, it's better for her. She doesn't want to see him yet. That Saturday's incident is still embedded in her memory. She doesn't know if she'll be able to react calmly infront of him, even if she knows she has no right.

But of course, with the way that Jeonghan is acting these days, it's inevitable that she meets him sooner. With a turn on a corner, she sees him. Jeonghan approaches her with a smile on his face, something she prefers not to witness at the moment.

"Good morning!" Jeonghan greets her.

She doesn't look at him but replies, "Good morning."

"Do you have a minute?"

"I'm going to the library now. I need to research something."

"Okay. Oh yah, I'll look for something too. I'll go with you."

"Okay."

They pace their way to the library together and enter the room silently. After finding the books they need, they sit beside each other at one of the tables.