When I Grow Up (Seventeen Jeonghan x CLC Seunghee)

Twelve: When Our Hands Touch

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"You like Jun?"

Sorn has just blurted out the most unexpected thing. Seunghee cannot believe her words. But she nods and turns all shy about. Seunghee is just bewildered.

"Since when?"

"Since we first met in the university."

"Sorn! I never noticed. And I'm sorry."

"It's okay unnie. It's not your fault. Jun's just not good at accepting defeats. He's too spoiled."

"Yeah. And I don't know what to do with him anymore. Sorn I think you're the one who can help him."

"Actually, I'm trying Unnie. But he only still got eyes for you. I don't think he'll ever really look at me. I don't think he ever has eyes for other girls than you."

Sorn looks really sad and hurt saying these things. Seunghee feels even more burdened now that she knows it's not just Jun she's hurting but Sorn too.

"Sorn, if I can only help you," she pitifully utters.

"It's okay unnie. I shouldn't really have told you about this. Considering you're the girl he likes. But you're the only one I can talk about this with. And I really wanted to know if you really don't have feelings for him. It's really bugging me all this time. I'm sorry for doubting you unnie," Sorn apologizes.

"It's okay," Seunghee goes to her side and pats her head. "When it's about feelings and love and the person we hold it for, we can't really avoid these things. It proves how we really feel about the person. It ascertains what's true and deletes all doubts we have in our hearts. That's why I understand you, because I love another person that much too."

Sorn starts tearing up, "Thank you unnie. I'm sorry."

Seunghee gives her an embrace while tapping her back, "Ah, don't cry now. It's okay. I understand."

Sorn feels guilty after doing it. But she has no other choice. She's been keeping her feelings for a while and it makes her wanna explode at times. It becomes so painful that it's so unbearable for her. But now she's thinking, what more for Seunghee, she asks herself. She's been keeping her feelings for Jeonghan for more than nine years now, it must have been really tough. She must have had the hardest times in all those nine years. In a way, she feels so little. She's so ashamed.

Seunghee can understand where she's coming from. She needed to tell her these to ease her pain, the pain she can't handle. But with what she's been through with Jeonghan in her more than nine-year wait with unrequited love, she can easily comprehend her. She's just being herself. She's just being her friend.

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Jeonghan cannot get it off his mind. Seunghee cannot be in a mutual agreement with Jun. The thought keeps him in bad mood all night that he needs some fresh air. By the time Sorn and Jun got into Seunghee's apartment, he was already strolling down the nearby park to clear his mind. He missed them by a minute.

He gets into a convenience store to buy some drink. Then he stays at the park for a place to deliberate. He sits at a swing drinking the energy drink he just bought. It's already 6PM and the sun is about to set. Part of him starts blaming himself. If only he's not too spineless to walk up to her all those times. He wasted so much time waiting for the right time, planning everything. He was so full of himself. It was never really a good decision for him. Seunghee is an extremely beautiful girl, it's luck that she only has one suitor now. And it's stressing the hell out of him. What more if she has more? Jeonghan grits his teeth at the thought.