Chapter 2:
(Harry's POV)
"What am I doing? I don't want to do this. This is stupid. I'm not doing this. I can't do this. What am I Doing?" I babbled as I ranted picking up a few item's of Ellie's as Niall sat on my bed watching me pace forwards and backwards. With some of Ellie's items in my hands, I looked over to Niall for some words of wisdom but he was preoccupied partially looking in what was in the box of Ellie's things that were front of him.
"Why are you doing it anyway?" he asked picking up a bra she had left here before she left the first time. I slapped his hand so the bra would drop back into the box before answering.
"To get it over and done with I guess. I don't want to do this though" I moaned like a 3 year old moving the box away from him.
"This was your idea to do this right now. You can always postpone it until your ready" Niall said trying to offer some help. Maybe, that would be a better idea- wait I can't, she's in the portal.
"It's too late for that. She's in the portal and there isn't any service from this universe to that one." I explained which he understood.
"Fair enough." he commented. I carried on pacing forwards and backwards as I returned back to ranting.
"Right. I get that we broke up. I know that. But I don't think I can do this. I don't want to do this." I rambled before I turned to face Niall who was pulling back the box so it was next to him again.
"Is that why your not putting her stuff in the box?" He asked stating the obvious, leaning on the side of the box. I looked down remembering that I was squeezing her top and key rings to the point where I couldn't squeeze any more, so I threw them in the box and moved the box next to the door as Niall stood up.
"At least that's done" Niall said trying to help the situation trying to persuade me that it was a weight of my shoulders, but it wasn't, not even close,
"Do I look alright? " I asked looking down at my clothes feeling uncomfortable feeling this nervous about seeing Ellie. He looked me up and down with a discouraging look before he spoke up as he stood up.
"You could at least shower " he said tapping my shoulder before leaving my room.
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I walked up the hill, rain pouring down on me as I carried her stuff up really not wanting to do this. As I was walking up this side of the hill, Ellie was walking up the opposite side at the same time. We were silent as we stared into each others eyes walking towards each other. We put the boxes down on the wet grass next to each other still looking at one and another.
"Hi" I said brushing my hand through my hair
"Hey" She replied putting her hands in the back pockets of her jeans.
"I got most of your stuff but I'm still missing a t-shirt because it's in the wash so I'll give it to Liam when i next see him if that's okay?" she explained. The shot of using other people like Liam to communicate between us bot hurt because I didn't understand why she wouldn't just give it straight to me.
"Okay thanks" I said. All I wanted to do I beg for her to try just one more time with me, but I didn't want to show her my weakness, I had done that already and it hadn't gotten me anywhere. I looked down figiting where I stood feeling the awkwardness about the whole situation.
"This isn't how I wanted us to be by the way." She spoke up. I looked up to see her trying to hold in her emotions, and all I wanted to do was take her away from all this, because I do still love her and seeing her like this hurts like hell, especially when I know I am the cause of this.
"But -" she said trying to carry on but on the edge of bursting into tears. I stopped her in mid-sentence, wrapping my arms around her to pull her in closer as I placed my head in the crook of her neck as she cried it out. I was even on the brink of shedding tears but I knew I had to be strong for her even if it was for the last time.
"I will always love you Ellie. Nothing will ever change that." I stated nuzzling kissing into her hair.
"I don't want to let you go" She said trying to hold herself together, holding onto me tighter. Truth being told: I don't want to let go either. I moved my head so it was leaning on top of hers before kissing her temple and then stepping back. If I couldn't be with her, I knew the best thing is to rip of the band aid instead of peeling it off. I needed to let her go. I took a hold of her hand and kissed the top of it like a true gentlemen as I looked deep into her eyes as I welled up. I let go of her hand reluctantly, picked up the box she had put down next to her with my stuff in.
"I will never let you go" I said giving her direct eye contact before turning around to walk away. Every step felt like I was stepping on fire and the further I walked, the hotter the ground got. But once I got near the end of the hill, I heard her voice call for me.
"Harry!" she shouted running after me, I turned around putting my box down before she ran up to me, pushing her lips onto mine in desperation, jumping onto my body wrapping her legs round my waist. I held up her legs from the top of her thighs as she placed both her hands on my cheeks. Our lips were in an intense session, knowing this would be our last touch. As she wrapped her arms around my neck to keep herself upright on me, I pulled her body closer to mine as the heat between us built with each cold rain drop attempting to cool us down. Taring our mouths from each others to catch our breaths, our temples touched as I looked into her eyes to see where we went from this.
"Tell me a lie to make this easier." she said breathless in between kissing my jaw-line. I took a hand from her bum and brushed it through her hair, making her gasp and close her eyes taking in the moment. I let my lips hover over hers making her breathing quicken before I whispered.
"I want you to let go of us" I lied.
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I Lost you (H.S Vampire)
Fanfiction*Book 5 * Ending their relationship on terms they can both agree with, Ellie Dunson and Harry Styles start their new lives without each other. But once they break, the divide between the witches and the vampires becomes bigger and worse and playing...
