99 Skinny • Adopted by 5sos #Wattys2016

Chapter 28

D A I S Y

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I ate a ton. Oh God. When nobody was paying attention I snuck away and practically ran to my room and locked myself inside. I walked to the full length mirror hung up on the wall near the bed and stood sideways. My hands gripped my shirt as I pulled it up. I nearly gagged at what I saw.

My stomach was unattractively poking out from all of the food I ate. I was glad I wasn't American; Thanksgiving is horrible.

The voice in the back of my head, the one that always nagged me about my weight, went crazy.

"You're so fat."

"You look like a whale."

"This is what you get for eating."

I wanted to throw up. I collapsed to the floor in tears, hugging my legs and rocking back and fourth. An idea popped into my head, and I crawled to my suitcase and found my emergency blade. I packed it for when I only needed it to help me cope with something.

The cool metal slid across my wrist. I watched as blood came to the surface, slowly dripping out the opened skin. I did this about ten more times, not fully realizing what I was doing until someone knocked on my door. I scrambled to hide the evidence and ended up covering my cuts with my hand, only smearing blood across myself. Oh shït.

"Daisy? You okay?" it was Luke.

"Yeah. I'm fine." I lied.

"Okay. Ashton wants you to come out and watch a movie with us." Luke said.

"Okay. Be out in a second." I called back.

I waited until Luke's footsteps got so quiet to the point where I couldn't hear them and sprinted to the bathroom to wash myself off and bandage my cuts. Then I snuck into Ashton's room and slipped on one of his hoodies. My nostrils were welcomed with the scent of cologne.

I went into the living room, receiving weird looks from the group, considering it was about 80 degrees outside.

"I'm cold." I simply said.

They all nodded and turned back to the TV. Calum and Dani were squished into a recliner together, Ashton was reserving a spot for me on the couch, Michael was on the other end of the couch, and Luke was on a separate couch. I sat next to Ashton, leaned up into his side.

"Here, you can pick the movie." Ashton handed me the remote.

"Okay." I scrolled through a list of movies, not sure which to pick. I loved Disney films so I stopped on frozen. "This?" I asked the others.

"No!" Michael shrieked, diving across the couch. He grabbed onto the remote and fought me for it.

"Michael!" I giggled, trying to pull the remote back.

I have no how this happened, but the next thing I knew the sleeve of my cut arm was pulled back and Michael had an iron strong grip on it. My eyes widened in realization when Michael and Ashton stared at my bandaged wrist. The room fell silent for about six seconds.

"What the hell?" Michael lifted my arm to his face, inspecting the bandages. "What happened?"

Shït.

"Um. . . I fell the other day," I lied. "And scraped my wrist."

Ashton took my wrist and looked at it, his strong grip hold it still, even as I tried to shake my arm out of his grasp.

"Ashton -" I began as he pulled one of the bandages off, revealing a few cuts.

"Oh my god." Dani gasped. I ripped my arm out of his grasp and pulled the sleeve down.

"I fell and scraped myself. I'm okay." I kept going with my lie.

"Let's go." Ashton stood up.

"Where?"

"We're going on a walk and discussing this. Come on." Ashton sternly said.

I hung my head in shame and followed Ashton.

***

Sand filled in the gaps between my toes, reminding me of how Carter and I would meet at the beach at sunset.

Shoot! Carter. I forgot to tell her I was leaving Cali. I made a mental note to myself to text her later.

Ashton and I were walking down the beach so we could "talk about some stuff".

"Are you mad?" I finally broke the silence.

"No way." his voice was raspy and sad. "Just kinda sad that you did that."

"I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking and at the time I thought it would help." I mumbled, staring down at the sand.

"Help with what? Why'd you do it?" Ashton asked.

"I ate all that food at our little Thanksgiving and I felt so disgusted in myself." I felt the tears in my eyes which were threatening to fall.

Ashton stopped us, and grabbed my chin, forcing me to look up into his sad eyes. "Listen to me. You are the most beautiful 15 year old I have ever met and you don't need to worry about your weight as seriously as you do. You could be a million pounds and still be beautiful." he giggled. "But I'm serious. I know this won't change anything, but I just want you to know that you're gorgeous inside and out and that you don't need to be so hard on yourself. Other girls would kill to have your body and I wish you would see that. Okay? So please, promise me you'll stop being so hard on yourself because it's killing me to see you so upset."

"And if you ever need me, I'll be here." Ashton added. "I promise. Whatever it is. Please, come to me next time. Please."

(Authors note thats my horrible attempt at making ashton sappy and cute and sweet)

I hugged him, crying into his shoulder because of how sweet he was. I didn't deserve him.

He hugged back, slowly rocking us back and fourth.

"I . . ." I stammered. "I love you."

Ashton kissed the top of my head. "I love you more. So much more."

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awe awe awe. I listened to find you by Zedd (the acoustic ofc) while writing that and now Im crying oh my god :(

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stay positive. ily <3