Home Wrecker {A.F.I}

Chapter 28

Alexandria

I woke up in the morning to an empty bed; hearing a knock on the door. I should have that when Ashton, said that he was going to the living room; he was just trying to make a get a way.
I slowly struggled to get out of bed, my head was pounding; and I wasn't surprised. There was nothing I wouldn't do to go back to last night and changed what happened. I should have manned up, and not gone to the bar. I chucked on a pair of pyjama shorts, and left the top of Ashton's on; that was when I noticed that his shoes were still on the floor beside my bedroom door, he didn't leave.

I made my way out of my room, over hearing voices, "I can't believe you Ashton!" It was my mum, "this is all your fault!"
"I know, I'm sorry," he said, "I honestly hoped to God that she wasn't at a bar last night," that was when I decided to walk out, and confront him and my mother. Him, for telling my mum about last night; and her, for blaming this on Ashton. It wasn't his fault that the slimy bastard took advantage of my drunken state; and it wasn't his fault I got drunk in the first place, it was me and my demons

"Hi," I said quietly, and my mum rushed over to me, wrapping me in her arms, she let go almost immediately and I could tell by the look on her face; she was furious with me
"I'm extremely disappointed in you, Alexandria," she said, calling me by my full name; a name she hadn't called me in the longest time. I didn't know what to say, "you promised me that you wouldn't drink,"
"I know," I sighed
"And you," she turned to Ash, "you promised me you wouldn't let her get hurt again,"
"It's not his fault mum," I groaned, "it was my decision to go out and get drunk,"
"No, it's not," she said, "if he didn't leave you this wouldn't have happened,"
"Why did you even tell her?" I scoffed
"Because I knew that you wouldn't," he sighed, "and she would have wanted to know,"
"You're damn right, I didn't want her to know, and that I wasn't going to tell her," I said, "I'm going next door,"
"Lex," Ashton said, trying to stop me walking to the front door, "we need to talk about this,"
"We can later," I sighed
"Lex," my mum warned, "he's right,"
"I'm not in the mood to talk right now,"
"I wouldn't go to Elle's if I were you," Ash told me
"Why?" I asked, curious as to why he wouldn't want me going to see her
"Her and Luke broke up last night," he told me
"Well fuck, if that isn't even more of a reason to go over," I said
"Lex," he warned

I eventually gave in, and stayed to talk to my mum, and Ash. We decided that it was best for me to get out of Melbourne for a little while. Well they decided. I wanted to stay.
Mum was all of a sudden very supportive of Ash. Which confused me, because about half an hour ago, she looked like she wanted to kill him. It was his idea, that we go to Sydney and stay there over the Christmas and New Years period; and she agreed. I was still so fucking angry with him, for telling my mum about last night; with out consulting me about it first.

Mum left shortly after, she made sure that I was okay, and wasn't going to start drinking that heavily any time soon. I knew for a fact that after last night; I would definitely be laying off the alcohol for a little while. I definitely was not going to get my self in that position again. I felt horrible that Ashton blamed him self for what happened. But it wasn't his fault in the slightest! It was my own.

"So when are we leaving for Sydney?" I asked, walking to the kitchen to make myself a coffee
"How does tomorrow sound?" He asked, and I just nodded. I boiled the kettle and grabbed everything I needed to make coffee
"Want one?" I asked
"Yeah, thanks," it was still rather awkward between the two of us. We hadn't had a chance to discuss our situation. I know that he said he made a mistake in walking away; but did that mean we were together? Or were we just friends, who were clearly in love with each other.

Once the coffee was made I brought it over to the couch where Ashton was sitting. I handed him the coffee and took a seat next to him, "why did you tell mum?" I asked, it was definitely a question he wasn't expecting. The shock evident on his face. I knew it was sudden; but I couldn't avoid it any longer
"She needed to know Lex," he said, "I knew you wouldn't tell her, but I had too. I feel so fucking responsible for what happened,"
"How many times do I have to tell you it wasn't your fault?" I asked, "it was mine, I didn't have to go out and get drunk,"
"But if I didn't leave you wouldn't have,"
"But I also could have been stronger and refused the urge to go and drink away my problems," I told him, that was the God damned truth, "please don't blame yourself," I sighed, "especially not for what the guy did; or tried to do, that's his fault, I shouldn't have spoken to him,"
"Why did you though?" He asked
"He came up to me at the bar, I was rather content with just sitting there, over indulging in crappy wine," I tried to crack a smile, "can we not talk about this anymore?" He nodded, "there's something else I want to know though,"
"What?"
"Where do we stand?" I asked, "because last night you left; and then hours later you said that you shouldn't have, so I'm so fucking confused," it was true, ever since he told me last night that he shouldn't have left, my mind had been wandering around in endless circles, trying to figure out what he meant.