The Darkest Pleasures

Chapter 22

Chapter 22

-122 Days Later

It now has been about four months since I had last seen Hazel. At this point in time in my life I feel content with never seeing her again. I mean if she wanted to see me again she would have found her way back into my life somehow, like she did before. I don’t think about her as much anymore, which makes things easier for my mental state of mind. The time when I went over to visit Ed Sheeran in the states really helped. Venting about Hazel that day was really one of the best things I could have ever done for myself. It’s weird to think in just a few months’ time one could just almost completely drop a person from their life. In the beginning from when Hazel first left, I would have never thought that I would feel less vulnerable. However, it feels like things are finally starting to change.

Things between the boys and I are better, well except for things between Louis and I. He still likes to pull a rude remark to me every now and again. However for the most part we just tend to ignore each other. I thought that whatever was going on between the two of us would have blown over by now, but I guess I was wrong. I in a way miss my best friend, the one that I could tell anything to. I don’t know why he is even still acting like this, Hazel and I aren’t even together and that was the major problem in the beginning.  I guess he is just going to continue to act like a prick until god knows when.

My two songs that Ed and I wrote made it on the boys and I’s new album. The album just came out a week ago, and today we have our first gig in the O2 in London. So in a way I am nervous about being a part of singing these new songs I wrote. It was hard in the studio when I was singing my harmonies for them. But at least when I was in the studio I was able to conceal my emotions more. Now that we are singing them live up on a stage, I don’t know how I am exactly going to handle myself. Hopefully I can just bottle it up until I get to my dressing room at the end of the show, then I will just let loose.

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We were all sitting in our dressing room backstage. We had another 2 hours until the actual gig even started and we just finished our sound check. So we were all just sitting around playing video games or having a good laugh.

In the middle of a race match of Mario Kart between Niall and I there was a soft knock at the door. Zayn was the first to avert his attention to the door and get up and actually answer the door. When he did there was a small brunette woman that entered the room.

“There is a special delivery for Harry Styles.” The lady said while entering the room with a potted plant full of weird looking flowers.

All the guys gave me a weird look at the fact there was a person delivering me a plant. I gave them a quick shrug and looked at the plant before me. I really don’t think this kind of thing has happened to any of us before. I walked up to her and looked at her weird. I never had flowers delivered to me before. That’s more of a gift that a guy gives a girl.

“Umm…Thanks.” I said taking the flowers out of her hand.  “What kind of plant is this?” I asked the florist delivery person.

“It is a peace lily.”  She said while she started to turn away and head out the door.

I looked at the plant I had in my hands, unsure of what to think about what I was holding. Just before the delivery person could leave the room I asked her one more question.

“Hey, do you know who this is from?” I asked.

“I’m just the delivery person. But by the looks of it, there is a note so it might say who it’s from in there.” She said then finally left the room.

I just stood there looking at it. It wasn’t the prettiest plant I’ve ever seen. It had more green foliage to it rather than any actual flowers. But there were a couple of white flowers poking out in places.