The Darkest Pleasures

Chapter 38

Chapter 39

I woke up this morning with a big grin on my face. Something about last night made me happy. It could have to do with Hazel somehow coming back in my l life, or it could be the fact that I had sex for the first time in a month. I’m hoping it was the first matter. I just can’t keep thinking about what she said last night about us being good again. Maybe is a long stretch to a yes, but it is a start. Maybe….just maybe she can be mine again.

“Why are you so happy looking this early in the morning.” Aaron said throwing his pillow at me.

“No reason.” I laughed.

“You’re a fucking liar. You took my advice and banged that broad down the hall. Was she good?” Aaron said nudging me.

I just started to laugh and tried to throw him off of me. Last night was amazing there was no doubt about it.

“Come one mate…fucking spill. I want to live vicariously through your plunders too. I tell you about all of mine!” He whined.

“Ok fine.” I said shoving him away from me once again. “Well it was amazing. We fucked on the wall, and she was moaning my name the entire time like she did before. But she was different now, she seemed hallow. Sex with her this time was different than the times before.”

I let out a sigh starting to look past all the sexual tension that Hazel and I had the night before. Sex between the two of us was always great and last night was definitely one of those times, but something was missing. Like to her it was just sex, and to me it was so much more than that.

“Wait….you said sex with her this time was different. You dog, you got with her the first night I told you about her.” Aaron said punching my shoulder.

“Ugh…not really.” I mumbled.

“Was she one of your one hit wonder women from the outside world?”

“She was not one of my one hit wonders.”

“Then I’m confused.” Aaron said in a puzzling tone.

“The girl from room 101 is Hazel. Hazel Emerson, the exact reason why I am in this joint.” I stated.

Aaron’s eyes grew the moment I told him that Hazel was the doped up loser that was on her second round here at New Directions.

“Holy Fuck.” Aaron said scratching his head. “How do you feel about it mate?”

“Well, at first I felt fine that it was her. I really missed her you know. But now….now that I think about it, I want to just yell. After all this time and being in here for a month, I thought I was just about finally done with it all. “

“I can understand. Are you going to talk to her and sort everything out, or are you going to ignore and hope for the best?” He asked.

“I don’t really have any other choice besides to talk to her. She lives here with me now; this time she can’t run away from me………She can’t leave!” I said growing slightly excited.

“Ok…she can’t leave. I don’t get what you’re saying now either Harry.” Aaron said in a confused tone.

“Before, whenever I wanted to talk to her about everything she either ran away was taken away from me, or I was beaten to a pulp. So now with her being here, and Ray not being allowed in here, I can finally know the truth.” I stood up coming to a realization that Hazel being here wouldn’t be have bad as I sort of thought it could be. I could either bring us back to where we once before, or I could finally get the answer to my questions and actually move on.