The Darkest Pleasures

Chapter 36

Chapter 36

-262 Days Later

I woke up to white surroundings and the smell of over used cleaning products. Waking up this time reminded me a lot of the last time I woke up in the hospital after an encounter with Ray. I guess once again I should be grateful that I survived another beating from him. The same couldn’t be said for Avery.

They announced her dead the moment the paramedics got there. That’s when I lost it. I broke down right there. I fell on to the floor and cried. I had never really lost someone in my life before. Especially losing someone right there in my arms. Someone I had grown close to in the past few months. It was hard feeling her last breath on my body. So when they started to take her body away I threw a fit, screaming and punching just about everyone in sight. I couldn’t let go, just not yet if it’s not one thing, its other thing being lost in my life. Why did it have to be her, why couldn’t it have been me to die instead? She had so much more going in life than me. Maybe that’s why I went crazy at that moment after everything had happened. I don’t think I could ever remember the last time or if ever I threw a fit of depressed and anger rage before. I’m sure the thought of harming myself was present; I could feel the pain in my palms from my nails jabbing into them. That’s probably why they sedated me and brought me to the hospital, to put an end to the entire trauma that day.

“Harry, glad to see you’re awake.” Louis said in the chair next to me.

I was glad we were friends again, but deep down I had a feeling he was disappointed in me for everything that has happened in the past few days.  He was also probably being nice to me since Avery did just get murdered also.

When I glanced around the room I noticed that it was just the two of us here. I wonder where they were.  I mean the last time I was in the hospital they were here, the situation right now was just about the same as before. So why wouldn’t they come now?

“They all are pretty mad at you. That’s why they aren’t’ here. Zayn might stop by later, he wasn’t sure yet. I’ve never seen him so pissed mate. So I’m sure he has an earful for you.” Louis said answering my question. “I’m pretty mad at you too actually, but I’m going to be nice enough to let you grieve over Avery’s death. I’m really sorry mate that she was killed. She was finally starting to grow on me.” Louis said with frown.

“Why couldn’t it be me?” I mumbled.

“I know how you feel. But I’m glad it wasn’t you though.” Louis said with sincere eyes. “But I’m still sad and sorry that had happened to her. She was really starting to help you out.”

“I’m sorry for her too. I’m really going to miss her.” I said with a sigh.

“Are you really going to miss her or are just going to miss the drugs and sex?” Zayn said walking through my hospital bedroom door.

“You’ve got a lot of nerve coming in here and saying that Zayn. She was actually a good friend of mine.” I spat.

Zayn just rolled his eyes at what I had just said, like he didn’t believe what was just being spewed from my mouth.

“So did you tell him yet Lou?” Zayn said pretty much ignoring what I had said just before.

“No I hadn’t. I was waiting for a better time. He literally just woke up 5 minutes ago.”  Louis whispered to Zayn.

Great, they had a secret between the two of them and I’m sure it involved me.

“Well, are you going to tell him soon, or….”

“What do you guys need to tell me?” I asked cutting Zayn off from his question to Louis.

“Zayn he is going to get mad once we tell him.” Louis said staring intensely at Zayn.