The Darkest Pleasures

Chapter 45

Chapter 45

Hazel's POV

I really didn't want to tell Harry about this past year. Just the mere thought of the past 365 days sends my mind to a dark place. A darker place than I've
ever been to, even with Ray the first time. This time around he treated me by far worse. There were times I thought it would have been better to let myself
bleed out from his blows rather than breathing another breath.
"Um....where do you want me to start?" I asked.

Harry and I were still out in the secluded gated wooded area. We were still sitting on the bench. We have been actually sitting this way for the past 15
minutes. Waiting for each other just to say something, I've noticed this between the two of us. We really didn't like starting anything, but once we got
going it was really hard to stop.
"I guess the day you fucked me in the loo. That was really the last time I saw you. I mean besides the hospital visits beforehand." he mustered up.

"Ok I can start there......"

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It has been a few days since I visited Harry in the hospital. I was happy he was healing from what Ray did to him. I blame myself. I should have never got
involved with Harry, at least he would have been miserable, but he would have been safe.

"Hazel babe can you bring me another beer?" I heard Ray shout at me from the other room.

I did as he said, I didn't need to have another excuse for him to hit me.

I went back to my room in hopes he would leave me alone for the rest of the night. I was wrong. I was always wrong with him. Ray came in and yelled at me
for being a terrible girlfriend. I never understood why he always said this to me.

I did as he told me; I went and grabbed him another beer. As I was walking around the kitchen to grab him his beer all of his men sitting in the kitchen
stared at me and had the most gruesome look on their faces. This was surprisingly different of them. They normally looked like they were staring into a
blank void.
As I left the kitchen I went towards Ray in the next room over and handed him his beer and started to walk away and head back to my room, my only remotely
safest place in the house.

"Did you think I wouldn't find out where you went.....I know you went to see him." Ray said as he briskly got out of his chair.
"I don't know what you're talking about Ray." I said trying to walk away from him.

I didn't want to get into an argument with him. I especially didn't want to get hit.

"Oh, I fucking know you know what I'm talking about." Ray said as he grabbed my wrist and got closer to me. "Don't you fucking lie to me bitch." Ray said
smacking me across the face. "You're mine now, and don't you forget it. If I ever hear of you seeing him again I will kill him and make sure you never have
a reason to see that stupid pretty boy face again."

I shuttered at his words he just blew across my face. I wanted to break down and cry right there. But, I didn't want to show him any of my emotion. Because
if I shed a single tear I'm sure I'd be hit again.

"You understand what I'm saying?" Ray blared at me.

I nodded my head to make sure he knew I understood, even though every bone in my body wanted to disagree.
"Good, now babe.....for your actions you need to be punished." He said with a devious smile. "Take of your clothes and it's time for you to show me just how
sorry you are for what you've done." He said unbuckling his pants.

I started to slowly take off my clothes, because I knew if I didn't comply with what he wanted from me I would be punished in a far worse of a form then
consensual sex. I glanced back at the kitchen and his men sitting back at the table. They all were hanging their heads low. So, they knew what was about to
happen and my screams of agony for the rest of the night didn't even cause them to budge.

From there I chose to block out the rest of the night.

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"So....he raped you?" Harry gasped.
I nodded my head softly.

Harry started to lean in my direction to embrace me. That's when I broke down. I try my best not to cry, but in this situation I could just not help
myself. The rest that night I was with Ray I did remember what happened. But it is just too painful to want to ever think about wanting to relive in my
mind again. However, that is exactly what happened. The moment harry wrapped his arms around me all those memories flooded back into me; every smack across
my face from that night because I didn't pleasure him enough. The tears that ran down my cheek when he choked me to the point I thought my I was going to
have my last breath. Then finally every raw thrust I had to endure. It was a pain I didn't even wish on my worst of enemies.

"Hazel....it's going to be alright. I'm here for you. I won't ever let him hurt you again." He said as he pulled a little tighter the moment he noticed as I
started to cry into his shoulder.

I cried a little harder the moment he said that.
"Harry....that's not even the worst of possible things that Ray did to me." I mumbled through my crying induced voice.
Harry started to pull away and looked at me deep in the eyes.

"What else happened Hazel?" He questioned.

"Harry....he got me pregnant that night." I spoke.