The Darkest Pleasures

Chapter 26

Chapter 26

-163 Days Later

I don’t want to be all deep and philosophical but, taking a shower sometimes can be a marvelous and relaxing thing. Like the way the water hits you just right. To some it can be a Caribbean escape; someday they are wishing to have. Then to others it's a simple massage to help them relax for a brief moment and forget all the troubles in their life. Sometimes it's a way to connect on an intimate level with your significant other. Then for me it's a mixture of it all, well except for the Caribbean escape. I could give two shits about it. The massage thing is definitely working for me, especially since the shower head nearly cost $2000 alone. As for the intimate moments, it's really not with a person. It's more with me. I know, how conceited of me. However, the most intimate thing in my life right now is music, so singing in the shower helps me feel a special warm feeling inside myself, just like how another person could make me feel.

The snot that I chose for this shower session was one that was in partially stupid. It was a song written I guess about me by an old colleague. It's not my fault I was not what she expected for a relationship, but that didn't stop her from coming around the second time she dated me. It all really doesn't matter now.  It all happens back when I was 18. I was young and naive about the world around me, not quite sure what was to expect in this fame filled world that I was emerging into. But, that chapter of my life is now over. She is just another speck of dust of my romances past. I've moved on, and I'm sure she has too. But, it never changed the fact on it being a good song, and how it fit in my life's scenarios at this chapter of my life.

Like I said singing in the shower helps me cleanse my mind and soul. So bear with me as I sing my way through all this crap going on with my life.

"Once upon a time a few mistakes ago

I was in your sights, you got me alone

You found me, you found me, and you found me

I guess you didn't care, and I guess I liked that

And when I fell hard you took a step back

Without me, without me, without me

And he's long gone when he's next to me

And I realize the blame is on me

'Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now

Flew me to places I'd never been

'Til you put me down, oh

I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now

Flew me to places I'd never been

Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground

Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

No apologies, he'll never see you cry

Pretend he doesn't know that he's the reason why

You're drowning, you're drowning, you're drowning

Now I heard you moved on from whispers on the street

A new notch in your belt is all I'll ever be

And now I see; now I see; now I see

He was long gone when he met me

And I realize the joke is on me, yeah!

I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now