The Darkest Pleasures

Chapter 30

Chapter 30

Avery's POV

*November 8th 2009

It has been over a year since I have emerged into the new crowd that I am now a part of. Hazel, Zoey, and I seem to be attached at the hip, like we've known each other all of our lives. Then there are the boys that we hang out with, which is mostly her brother Dick and his best mate Ray. Hazel still tries to whisper in my ear that she still thinks I'm a lesbian. For the most part I find it strange, but then there is this strong desire in me that wants to be with her, in a romantic sense. I don't know why I feel this way. It might have been the thing she told me over a year ago back at that Halloween party, but then again it might be the subtle sexual comments she makes to me all the time. It is kind of crazy to be hanging with these kinds of people. They are so wild and driven, something I would have never found myself apart of yet alone becoming one also.

Ever since that party last year on Halloween everything has changed. Well....with Ray things are different. Actually it all happened after that Halloween night. Later that night he kissed me. It was my first kiss, then shortly after that my virginity. Basically from that point one Ray and I have been an item it sounds bizarre strictly based on the fact that was the night he told me he was in love with Hazel. However, no one knows about us. We often meet up down at the pond where I first met Hazel. Then he tells me that if I tell anyone about what is happening between us, he will hurt me. I pretty sure he is just using me for sex, and the fact that I am too afraid to break up with him. I don't want to be in this relationship, it was a drunken mistake giving myself to him, which only made him think that I was now his.

With it being sophomore year, Hazel and I are now roommates, which can be strange from time to time. Meaning that she goes in these bursts of time where she talks my ear off to moments where she won't talk to me for days. Then finally there are the sexual advances, which I often don't quite understand. But, all I did know was that it turned me on. I had a feeling that she knew that it did, but she never really acted on it, which in a way I was fine with.

Today was one of the days where I was supposed to by all by myself. Hazel was supposed to go to some club meeting and study. I don't exactly remember all what she had said. So I let Ray know I was going to be alone, which excited him in a way. So that meant that we would be having sex later, which I was fine with, because it let me forget everything for a little bit, something I needed from time to time. However, now Hazel wasn't going anywhere, something about her freedom of expression. I once again wasn't really paying attention to what she was talking to. That is normally what I did whenever she went on her talking tangents about basically anything.

"Mr. Griswold is a pretentious cock sucker. I mean come on; I need a grade booster so me offering him head should have gotten me something. For fucks sake, all I want is a C. Ugh...." Hazel complained

"Have you ever thought about studying, and getting the proper grades that way?" I said in a sarcastic tone.

Hazel look offended for a moment, then proceeded to roll her eyes.

"Avery.... I have no time to study. You know that. Dick and I run a very lucrative drug dealing system here at school."

"Yeah, I know. I was just suggesting something as an alternative."

"It would be the smart thing to do, studying that is, but it probably won't happen. I mean if I'm not in class, I'm selling or well you know." Hazel said with a wink.

I let out an annoyed sigh, hoping that she would drop her interest in this conversation.

It seemed to work for a few minutes before she started talking again.