Deep down inside my heart (A Jesy Nelson story) *slow updates*

Chapter 24: Gestures

(Perrie)
"Morning." A soft voice was pulling me into reality. I could feel Leigh's warm arms wrapped around my body. This moment was absolutely wonderful. "Hey." I looked up to meet her warm chocolate brown eyes, but instead was met with intense grey eyes. "What's wrong?" Ava's voice asked me. I screamed and pushed myself away from her and felt myself land on the floor besides the bed and looked down at myself, fearing the worst. My heart clawed into my throat in horror, seeing my bare arms and legs, my clothe-less body. "N-no no no!" I begged and closed my eyes in horror, this couldn't be happening. "Perrie?"
"Perrie, hon, what's wrong?'
"Stop."
"Perrie, look at me please." The person asked. I rocked back and forth, hugging my knees. "I only love Leigh. I only want Leigh. I only need Leigh." I repeated over and over like a mantra, feeling hands on my wrists. "Perrie! Wake up!"

-I screamed again and realized it was Leigh who was looking down on me. I sat up and took in the familiar surroundings of our room. I threw myself on my girlfriend in relief and nuzzled into her neck, the trembling starting to subside. "You okay love?" She frowned against my forehead and gently brushed my hair. "In a minute." I breathed, feeling relieved it was her I woke up with. Not Ava. Leigh-Anne didn't say anything, she only stroked my hair to calm me down as a soft gesture, letting me lay in bed with her. "Pez, it's not much but if you don't want to talk about it. I don't mind." She paused whilst I shifted to get comfortable. One of the endless reasons she was a perfect human. I sighed in relief and just held on to her. "I'll try. Later. Thank you Leigh." I tried to hide away from the world in her collar, hearing her sigh contently and murmured in response; keeping me close to her. I didn't want to ever see that image in my head again. She only kept running a hand through my hair softly. I listened to hear if Daniel was awake yet, thankfully the flat was still silent. Then I checked the time, seeing that it was 8 in the morning. That was a little surprising, Dan was typically an early riser however we all had a late night with a couple of the other girls from the swim team who had come over to have a small group night, which was all of us playing games and singing bad karaoke with Daniel who had also stayed up with us until around eleven before he went and fell asleep in his room. In fact, Brook had decided to make herself a home out of our couch so she wouldn't have to walk back to her flat, which was literally next door. For being a swimmer, she was quite lazy. But then again, so was I, especially if I got to stay in bed longer with Leigh-Anne. I wouldn't give that up even for a full house dinner meal. "Feel better?" Leigh asked me after a few minutes of comfortable silence. Turning in her arms a little bit to rest my chin on her chest, I nodded being able to lose myself in her luscious brown orbs at the same time. "Do we have practice today?" Leigh asked, I snorted remembering it was Saturday today. "Babe, it is Saturday, last time I checked, we have the weekend off." I raised an eyebrow, seeing her blush in return. "Riiight, but hey yes! That means no Ava bugging the literal bloody hell out of us!" Leigh whooped and kissed me before prancing out of bed, leaving me a little clueless. How the fuck was she getting out of bed  on a Saturday morning? It was literally eight! I watched her waltz around in a small victory dance before a yawn slipped past my lips. "Urgh. Leigh-Anneeeee, come back." I pleaded in my sleepy voice. She giggled and prodded at my side, I rolled over shutting my eyes and taking the duvets with me. "But Perrie it's Saturday!"
"Go black to sleeeeeeep." I moaned, feeling relieved when my eyes were slowly sliding shut again due to how tired I still felt. "Oh fine you whining willow." Leigh came back into the bed soon enough, I didn't hesitate to latch onto her like a leech, wrapping my arms and legs around my girlfriend. "Thanks Leighly." I warbled happily and felt her arm wrap loosely around my waist to hug me to her body. "You know I love you right?" She pecked my forehead. "I love you too." I yawned again, drifting off in her arms once more after maybe five minutes. I wished I could spend all day in bed with her, but this was perfectly fine for now, I would definitely take what I could get.
"Oh Pez. Perrie berry."
I popped an eye open after waking from a nice dreamless nap. "Good morning sleeping beauty." Leigh hovered over me, propped on one elbow. "Morning Leigh Leigh." I yawned, running a hand through her perfect Afro. "Nice nap?" She prompted. I shrugged, yes it was very nice, just went by a little too fast for my liking. "Did you even sleep at all?" I chuckled, realizing how more awake she seemed than I was.
I watched her slowly turn a little bit red. "Leigh?" I smirked.
"Well I uh..."
"What?"
"Iwaswatchingyousleep." She mumbled into my neck. Aww, my heart swelled at that. "Aw Leighly." I cooed and watched her blush furiously now. "It's just, you're my princess. And I like to admire what I have, I'm a lucky girl." She smiled. I locked my arms around her neck and lost myself for a second, in her orbs. "We both are you know?" I agreed, she leaned down to kiss me softly in agreement. "I guess so Pez, I guess so." She grinned, peppering my face with kisses and just snuggling me. Honestly today was one of the best mornings in a long time. We decided to get up and put on some quick clothes to kick Brook out of our flat, well, after she ate breakfast of course with Daniel when he woke up. The four of us just chattered before the other swimmer went next door once more.
"Can Brook, Ally, and Kelly have dinner with us today?" Daniel asked bouncing up and down excitedly once we were all getting ready to go out and have some downtime together. Leigh and I agreed on bringing Daniel to an amusement park nearby, cleared it with the swim team and everything. "Sure squirt, although first we're going to the fair!" Leigh-Anne smiled deviously along with the nearly eight year old boy who gasped and started getting far more excited, both of them ran out the flat to the car. "Well thanks guys! Leaving me behind." I murmured the last part, chuckling at them whilst I locked up and unlocked the car when I reached the floor level, seeing Leigh and Daniel both running around the car. "Last time I checked, we're not at the park? And you, most certainly are not five." I prodded Leigh-Anne's nose before unlocking the door. "Well I'm having a little fun, so if I look five then I'm doing it right." She smiled proudly and accepted Dan's hi five. I let the two go after that and just sighed in mock annoyance, a tiny smile crept up to my lips though whilst looking at the little family I had. Although a little sting of guilt hit when I reminded myself Jesy wasn't with us, but Daniel was okay. That's what mattered most, for him to be okay and in good hands. Leigh gave me a knowing glance as we went to buy tickets, watching the little squirt getting excited and started bouncing around us in a circle. "Can we ride the Ferris wheel and bumper cars? Please please please!" He practically begged in excitement, his bright hazel eyes glinting magnificently in the limelight. Leigh and I shared a look and just nodded, giggling silently whilst he cheered in delight. "I'm going to win a prize for Jesy too." He added, my heart lifted at his adorable gestures. He could always find a way to reconnect Jesy to positive things, because his little heart is made of gold. "I'm proud of you Dan. Jes would be too, she loves you very much." I kissed his forehead and gave him a little hug before Leigh purchased an armful of tickets. "Leigh!" I giggled, she shrugged. "To hell with saving up! I'm gonna spend em all! Right squirt?" She shot Daniel a look and he jumped up, nodding with her. "Let's go!" He herded us towards a very long, very exhilarating evening I wouldn't change for the world.