Broken {Completed}

Reunion of Sorts

On the way home everything was eerily silent. Gunnar was obviously upset that I kept the fact that he had a father living in LA from him, but who could blame me?

He could have known about his father, but know that it was a man that would reject him and want nothing to do with him. Or me. I wanted Gunnar to feel like I was all he needed because I was all he was ever going to get.

"I want to know why. Then I want to meet him," Gunnar spoke as we pulled up in the drive.

"It's complicated."

"Complicated? Or are you just to afraid that it will change how I look at you?"

"Both."

"Then tell me."

I took a deep breath and tried my hardest to avoid Gunnar's gaze. I love him, I really do, but I just couldn't comply with his wish. Not right now.

"Can this wait. It's not the right time to tell you."

"Well too late I already know I have a father out there somewhere, and my uncle is my music teacher!"

I sighed in defeat. I got out of the car and walked inside where I slumped down on the couch exhausted. Gunnar joined me on the couch and waited.

I just couldn't. No words would come out of my mouth on the subject, and we sat there in silence for a while. There was a sudden knock on our door.

Gunnar got up to open it. "Oh look! It's Uncle Jared of whom I never knew existed, and still don't know why the fuck you decided to keep him from me!"

"Hey, I know your mad, but that's your mother don't talk to her like that, and I'm sure she has her reasons," Jared said entering the house.

"Which are still unknown at this time." Gunnar highly upset and stormed off to his room.

"Why haven't you told him yet?" Jared sat down on the couch and pulled me to him. He always had this way of comforting me when no one else could. There were times where Shannon and I would get into large fights and wouldn't speak for days, but Jared was always there.

"I don't know what to say. 'I never told you because your father never wanted you?' That's hardly comforting."

"Does Shannon know?"

I shook my head. "When I found out I was pregnant with him, I tried to convince Shannon to settle down and start a family, but he said that that was out of the question, and if I wasn't satisfied with what we had then I should find someone else because he wasn't going  to change. Then later that night I went home to see him fucking around with Macy! The woman who was suppose to be my best friend, Jared! That's not even the worst part! He looked right at me, and didn't even flinch!" Jared began to rub my back as I began to cry. "I thought I was so in love, that something could still happen, that he could change his mind, but when I saw that I... I just couldn't. So I packed my things and left, but keeping Gunnar is the best decision I've ever made. I just didn't want him to know how dysfunctional his family was. I wanted it to be just the two of us because I thought I was protecting him from a heartache that no child should ever feel."

"And what heartache would that be?" Jared said moving his hands up to my head where he combed through it tenderly.

"Rejection. If anyone knows how that feels it's me. I was rejected my both of my parents. Not once but twice. They left me in a basket sitting on a dumpster, and when I went to find them again my own mother shot at me! I've never felt so unwanted in my life, and when I saw Shannon. All of that came back."

Jared pulled me into his side, and I immediately rested my head on his shoulder and cried.

"I know that facing rejection is hard, but Shannon and your son both have a right to know, and I know without a doubt had you told Shannon you were pregnant, he would have left you in a heartbeat, but that shouldn't have stopped you from telling him or your son, and he's changed a lot over 17 years. You need to tell him."

"I can't. Every time I look at him all I see are those apathetic eyes that didn't give a damn when I caught him with my best friend."

"Shannon is anything but apathetic if you would just give him the chance. You know, he called me yesterday, and told me that he hired you as his assistant, but he was so broken that you were closed to him, and then there were your conditions. He cried. He felt horrible about what he did to you, and said that when you first saw him it was like looking in a crystal ball back to that day, and your expression was the exact same."

"It's been 17 years Jared. I know I should tell him, but what am I supposed to do? Just let him into our lives after 17 years of it being just Gunnar and I?"

"That will be hard, but you have to start somewhere. You'll figure it out."

I continued to rest against him. Not know what to say or how to approach the situation. I just hate that reuniting with Jared had to be this way.