Broken {Completed}

Broken Yet Holding On

A/N for the most effective experience, don't play the video until you get to the astrid* and thank you to those who have read this story and gotten it to 1k reads! Im always happy to see comments and votes! Thank you all so much from the bottom of my heart! I've enjoyed writing this and I'm said to see it come to a close! Maybe there will be a sequel... Who knows?

Shannon had finally gone to London, and I kinda wished he had take us with him. I didn't know how to handle the situation with Feo. I still loved her even though she didn't feel the same.

I needed advice. My mom was busy enough with trying to help Antonio run the company in my father's absence, so I went to the only person I could. Jared.

His phone rang a few times before he picked it up. "Hey how's it going?"

"I need advice again. Can I come over?"

"Sure. Do you need me to come get you?"

"No my mom left her car keys."

"Okay see you soon."

I hung up the phone after that. I grabbed the keys and the credit card Shannon left in case of emergencies. I got in the car and drove to Jared's. His house was just on the outskirts of town, so I had a little while to drive before I got there.

Ten minutes into driving I had stopped at a red light in front of a dress shop. A dress that hung on a rack caught my attention it was long and white with something on the bottom of it.

When the light turned green I circled back around and parked. I went inside the store and was greeted by a young girl about my age. I gave her a polite nod before going to the dress.

I pulled it off the rack and and immediately pictured Feo in it. The dress was unbelievably beautiful. It was a white one shoulder floor length gown with birds flying at the bottom. I knew she would love it.

I quickly gave Shannon a call. It took him a moment before he answered ruggedly. "Hey I was wondering could I use the emergency credit card you left to buy a dress?"

He didn't respond for a moment. "What do you need a dress for? And that doesn't sound like an emergency." His voice was rough and cracked.

"Well it kind of is. Feo and I kind of got into this fight, and I want to make it up to her." Shannon sighed deeply before responding with an okay. "Also can I get a hotel room for prom night?" I said quickly hoping he was too sleepy to catch on. After all it was a little after 2am there.

"No," he said firmly.

"Please! I am head over hills in love with Feo, and I want everything to be perfect."

"You're telling me that you're planning to sleep with Feo in a hotel room, and you think I would agree to that?"

"There's no guarantees that we would even have sex. She's a lesbian."

"Then why go through the trouble of getting a hotel room?"

"Because I just want us to be alone, and we have a lot that both of us need to talk about. Please, Dad." It was the first time I'd ever called Shannon dad. I did it in part because I hoped he would say yes, but mostly it was long overdue.

"I will talk to your mother about it first, but you can go ahead and get the dress."

"Thanks Dad."

"You're welcome." He hung up after that.

I went to the register and paid for the dress then continued on my way to Jared's.

• • • •

I sat in my room listening to music. The horrible emptiness in my chest wouldn't go away, and I hadn't been to school in a few days.

Anna had broken up with me because she wanted someone more committed, and it wasn't that I didn't like her, it's just that I didn't know what I wanted.

Maybe it was best if I live my entire life alone. All I've ever managed to do is push people away. I'm surprised my dad hasn't kicked me out yet.

I began to hear the soft melody of a piano playing coming from outside my window. I pulled back the curtains and saw Gunnar as he began to sing.

*I can see you walkin' out
I'm not tryin believe it
There's no way that this can be for real, I'm dreamin'
I can see the water in your eyes
You don't have to do this
There has got to be a better way, I know it.

Back up the day now
What did I do to get us to, this point
Me losing you, in this moment
I feel it, deep in my chest
I can't breathe...

I can't let go
Boken yet holding on
To you, to us
This love is too strong for me to let go
Broken yet holding on

Afraid everything is over now
The rain cloud is passing
I'm still tryin to wonder how I lost you
Are you really over me?
You said so, don't believe it
You are where I wanna be
I love you.

Back up the day now
What did I do to get us to, this point
Me losing you, in this moment
I feel it, deep in my chest
I can't breathe...

I can't let go
Boken yet holding on
To you, to us
This love is too strong for me to let go
Broken yet holding on

I can't let go
Boken yet holding on
To you, to us
This love is too strong for me to let go
Broken yet holding on

We said we'll never give up
When we hit bottom
We'll try to find the broken pieces of love
Ooh oohh

I can't let go
Boken yet holding on
To you, to us
This love is too strong for me to let go
Broken yet holding on

I can't let go
Boken yet holding on
To you, to us
This love is too strong for me to let go
Broken yet holding on

Holding on...

He finished the song on a beautiful piano melody, and when he finally looked up to meet my tear filled eyes, I pushed up the window. He was hesitant to approach at first.

"Feo, I-I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you had problems, but the truth is I was always there. I waited every day hoping that you would talk to me, instead of me always talking to you. I guess you really did move on, and that's okay. As long as your happy I'm happy. Everything that I said in that card is true. I'll cherish the fun times that we had together. I know this probably won't change your mind, but I saw this, and I thought of you." He bent down to pick up a canvas gown bag and brought it to me.

I took it from him not able to find the ability to talk. I wanted to say something, but my stupid brain wouldn't function. I've never had an experience like this, and it left me utterly breathless.

He kissed my cheek. His mouth lingering longer than the average kiss. "Goodbye, Feo," he said turning to gathering up his things.

Say something! I scolded myself, but words still wouldn't come. I watched with tears streaming down my face as he walked away.

I unzipped the bag and inhaled a sharp breath at the beautiful dress in my arms.

A/N again thank for reading!!! Just a disclosure I do not own this song! I found this video on YouTube and thought it would be perfect for Gunnar to sing to Feo! And I liked it and thought that I would write the whole chapter based on this song that was written by Roni Tran. So thank you for reading and more to come! ❤️