So I know that if you read this or get messages about me updating, you can ignore them. I am doing a diary thing for the summer, just so that I can see how its been going and all that. I also wanted to have it in case I decided to talk to my doctor/guidance counsler about anyhting. And so tht my g.c. doesnt think im lying because shes a prat.
9:09 am
So here it goes. Day 3 of my summer long blog. Its July 1st out here in America and in 3 days time, it will be independence day for the americans reading this. And I'll cry in a corner when my neighbors throw a huge party and I won't be able to sleep. Im gonna write this at different times through out the day, whenever something hits me, or something like that. Im still gonna do my end of day reflection and pour out all my emotions, but I want to also add in some during the day bit.
I was on Facebook as I hae nothing better to do, and I was surfing through it because I'm that awesome surfer dude. My parents are out of the house and my bother is downstairs watching the Tour de France. So for the next month or so, I will be rooting on Mark Cavendish, Tommy Vockler, Sammy Sanchez, and Chris Froome. C'mon boys!
I was reading through this looking at comments and apparently, my story is like some one direction story. I'm sorry, I didn't realize fan fiction was related to my life. Okay so here goes this. if my life is like a fanfiction, then my life better be one with Avenged Sevenfold and Hetalia and NCIS in it. I better be dating Zacky Vengeance and Gibbs is my dad and Prussia is my brother. That would be an awesome life.
Im gonna finish up for the morning as I have been writing for like 20 minutes dead. So I can't type. Sucks for you. I am actually excited for the next chapter of Cera and goddess's fanfiction which I am betaing.
K im out for now until tonight :)
6:00 pm.
hey! Im back and Im to lazy to do this tonight. So I'm gonna set a couple things right.
One: don't say that I'm just attention seeking.
2: I do not cut myself or hurt myself
3: If you judged me, leave and don't come back
4: I don't agree with people saying oh I'm depressed after a bad test or class.
5: I hate peple who judge depressed people
6: ANd I hate people who say that people who commited suicide are stupid for not reaching out. They tried to face it themselves and lost the battle. They were probably stronger than you but had no one to lean on when they needed it.
7: I hate health teachers who tell you that you aren't depressed because you are only a kid. Depresson can hit at any age. My old health teacher made us take a test and those who scored 50 % or above (I was a 90 because I was at my worst in sixth grade when I had no friends) had to stay behind. She looked at us and said those who got a 70 and beow can leave. So it was only me and shetold me that I wasn't depressed and that I needed to get over myslef and not try and draw attention to myself. She also told me I was a lying child. Well then bitch. you can rot
8: My brother is dyslexic. I hate, hate it when people go oh Im dyslexic today. No your not. Can you read? Can you spell? Do you not have a headache trying to read? Then no your not. Dont use a genetic disease to explain your failure at spelling. I honestly want to punch them in the face or rip out their 8th chromosome and then let then feel how it is to read and write for dyslexics
9: English accents on Americans. Amanda, this is to you bitch. You are american right? you don't like it when I tell you that you have a stupid accent. so don't go around mocking the english or I will punch you.
10: Teachers who tell you to stand for the pledge when you arent american. Then they tell you that you aren't american and try to get you sent down to the office. failure. Its great when I say yes im not american how could you tell.
11: British people are from Great Britian. There are the English, Welsh, Scottish, and Irish that are part of Great Britian. So STFU!
12: Kids who bully other kids. Please don't. You have no idea how hard it makes that kids life. It makes them second guess themselves. ON WHICH TOPIC I WOULD LIKE TO DISCUSS HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE! and hot :D
13: the bimbo's who act better than others and put them down.
14: The kids who joke about hurting themselves and commiting suicide. Not cool. that is all it can take to trigger someone to do so.
15: When some ass asked me if I was going to go die because I was ugly. EXCUSE YOU! All girls and guys are amazingly hot and awesome. No I'm not going to go die. I'm going to go cry myself to sleep and somehow manage to put a smile on my face as I walk into school the next day, ready for more bullying and rudeness.
16: guidance counslers who don't help. They just say oh your amazing as yourself. Well thats helpful until you walk out of there and there's the asses waiting outside to bully you.
17: Anyone hurting someone for the sake of hurting them and making them feel horrible. Even if i makes you look cool to be doing so, how would you feel if that was you? Wait all you care about is being cool. Sorry forgot
18: the boys who only want sluts as girlfriends and pass up girl who are perfect as they are.
Now before my computer dies, thank you for reading. Day 3 journal accomplished. SEE YOU LATER :D
Rock on kiddo's
