Great. So I may have a slight problem. My friends all know that on Friday, I told them about my possible moving back to England. And I now have to face my parents who want me to move by myself.
I am a freshman in high school and my parents are planning my college experience... Joy. But what's worse is that my parents are now considering the option to send me oversea's to live in England with my nan and grandad, just so I can attend college for like 4,00 pounds a year. Which is cheap I understand.(in US its like 9,000). Don't think that I wouldn't trade anything to go back to my home, and the place that I belong, but I have to leave my friends. I have to leave the school I worked so hard to get into, leave my friend who is now depressed because of sh*t going on in her life(if you bully someone, leave and don't read, fan or comment on my stories. I don't want people who insult others, ESPECIALLY if that person is now severely depressed.).
And I would have to start at a new school and leave my friends and family. My brother, dad, and mum wouldn't come with me so its ike starting complety new. The worse fact is? They don't care that I wont have my friends there to support me.
So I got told that on Monday and i told my friends Friday. Ya so it may be a long time to hold it in but I didn't believe it for a while. Until it hit me. And I am in tears. I can't leave my friends, the ones who made me feel loved. And if I know my parents, I will be leaving this summer or next. Why do I have these suspicions, you may ask.
Well, I told my mum that Sunney and I were planning on starting an art club next year and she told me that I might not be around to do that. GREAT!!!! LOVELY, WONDERFUL! Thank you soo much.
I guess the reason behind her madness is that you have to be an English Resident and citizen to get cheap tuition. And that's allmy parents care about. They would make me leave during the school year if they could. And the worse thing? I might not get to graduate with my best friends ever. With Canisa and Asilah and Karysa and Kaericia and Joie and Ruby and Daemion. Katlynn and Alicia and Mel and even (sadly) my ex. With C Bass and Smalls and god, even freaking Nicole who would be in college. I wouldn't be in the same country and I wouldn't be there to congratulate them and wish them a great future. And what hurts me as well? I might not be there for my old friends graduation. Lizzy and Nadia and Hannah and Paige and Eve and Hunter and Caroline and Morgan.
I need a hug. Or someone to tell me its gonna end up all right and I will be fine. That I won't have to go and that I can stay here forever nad never leave my friends. I love them and leaving them will tear my heart out into a million pieces.
There has always been a chance of me leaving because of my dad's work and my home country being England. But this chance? This one is serious. This one is like 10% away from happening. And I may just have to leave.
Whats worse? I don't have a say although its my future.
