Or at least I think he does. He is an amazing boy, who is a senior, and he's a friend. He asked for my number and was being sweet and everything. It may just be me thinking of having someone like me, but I think he has a crush on me. His name is Ryan. No not the Aggie ryan. A different ryan who I think will treat me better if we ever become more than friends. He's a nerd, but a cute nerd. If I was interested in dating, which I'm not as of right now.
On to that note of not wanting to date. I just don't think I am secure enough with myself to date a person and let them in on everything. I would have to hold secrets and I wouldn't want to do that. I also think that I can't let someone in and make me feel worse about myself. Is that odd?
I just feel like I can never let anyone in. I know I really should, but I dont even let in my Aggie friends in on everything. I just dont want anyone patronizing me or looking down at me because of how I feel.
So yay for self- confidence! Which I have none of.
Buy the way, my nan and grandad are here from England, and I am excited for that. But ehh.
Its late and I'm tired but I updated and ya. BE PLEASED!
