I have actually slept this past week or so. I think seeing Canisa in the flesh and just talking to her made me feel better... a bit. I slept this week, I still have bags under my eyes but I have slept and that is all I can ask for.
Though, last night I didn't sleep so good. I had a shit ton of nightmares and I think I ended waking up every hour from nightmares and then going back to sleep. Its the normal nightmares, mixed in with the new ones. And the new ones scare me more than the old ones.
I remember one of them vividly. Somehow, this got leaked into the whole school, and everyone was staring at me, muttering about the freak. I had notes in my locker that told me to die and that I was worthless, I got punched in the halls, and admin ended up calling me down and told me that I wasn't allowed in this school until I got over this 'phase'. Then the whole drill with my friends leaving me at my classroom door and they got put down by people at the school and then left me.
I hate my nightmares. They reflect what I am feeling inside and my fears. It sucks.
Urg. And then the usual nightmares of my friends dieing, leaving me, me dieing and left to see the reaction of my friends, the usual shit.
I updated, be proud. Night.
