Caskett: Their Home

Chapter 2: Dangerous Territory

I woke up at around 6:30 and struggled to get out of bed. I felt the vodka in my system. I got up and ran to the bathroom. I emptied my stomach into the toilet and it felt rather nice, I could feel a relief of pressure, along with the joy of being skinnier. It was more than normal, which made me pale. When I flushed the toilet I looked up at myself in the mirror. I felt my crap. I was crap. I am crap. So I got dressed and changed the dressing on my chin. I wore flats instead of heels because I was still a little bit hungover. I took a cab to work and when I got inside the precinct I saw Castle sitting in his chair with two coffees in hand, ready to distribute to me. I walked over and he glanced at my figure. I took the coffee from him and quickly sat down.

"How are you feeling, Kate?" He asked scooting closer.

"I'm fine Castle, how was your night?" I asked trying to avoid the observation he took of my figure.

"I spent most of it with you."

"What are you talking about?"

"Do you not remember?"

"Can we just not talk about this."

"Beckett."

"Castle! I said no." I then got up and walked into the break room. I sat down in the chair and put my head in my hands. I tried to be strong but it was getting harder and harder each day. I heard the door open and it didn't take a rocket scientist to decipher that it was Rick.

"We need to talk about this. You can't just pretend it never happened."

"Why? Castle, I know I got a little emotional last night, but I'm fine, we need to forget this ever happened. Because, if the precinct found out I was drunk last night, I might get fired for being a danger to society, and i know you saw my blood coming from multiple places and you wanted to help, but I don't need your help, forget it." I then got up and went back out to my desk. He followed me and sat down beside me, presenting me with his words,

"You call that a little emotional? You were over the edge. I'm just surprised you actually came to work to today.

Silence

"Look Beckett, how long has this been going on? Because I'm willing to help you if you let me, I'll always help you, and you know that."

"I don't like the way I look. I don't like the way I work. I don't like who I am Rick. I wake up and get justice for other families when I'm never getting them for my own, I see people with perfect bodies and great personalities. I come here and run around with the schools funniest kid, and you know what? It's not enough, I don't need your help, Rick. I don't want it either."

"You don't have to like it, or want it, but you do need it. And I'm going to give it to you."

Our conversation was interrupted by my desk phone, I picked it up, "Beckett...yeah...where...be there in 10," I then hung up the phone and turned my voice towards castle, "we have a murder, you coming, or do you want to stay here and come up with more ways to bug me?"

"I'll come."

I gave a simple nod and walked quickly to the elevator. I pressed the button and waited for it to open. Rick also waited anxiously by my side, trying to be secrete in a way. I brushed it of and and walked into the now opened elevator. In seconds the door closed and we started moving. Rick scooted over and pressed the stop button. I tried to press it again, but he moved in front of it.

"Get the fuck out of my way, Rick!" I yelled shoving him back in the chest.

"Kate, I love you. That's why I came to your apartment that last night, to tell you that I love you. And I always have. I want you to know that, and I want to help you, you're perfect in my eyes, and I can't handle the sight of you distorting yourself." Rick said walking up to me.

"I-Rick-let ME GO!"

"Kate-"

"RICK!" I shoved him to the side and pressed the button on the elevator once again, once the door opened again I ran through the door. I loved Rick too, but I was to scared to confront it. If I told him I felt the same way the. He would try to break down my wall, and that was the last thing I wanted to do. He was a great person and I couldn't imagine my life without him. I didn't want my emotions to get the best of me, but instead I started to cry. As I ran out the precinct door my vision began to blur from my tears. I kept on running, straight on the path I could barely see ahead.

"Kate stop! Please!" He yells running close behind me. But I soon I could no longer hear his footsteps so I was concerned. Was he hurt? Did he give up? I didn't want him to give up. I kept upon running, but I looked back, tears blowing from my eyes. I saw him call out y name,

"KATE! LOOK OUT!"

I stared out in front of me and saw a bright shining light, and then I realized that I had run into traffic and my life would most likely end.

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RICK'S P.O.V. I was running after Kate like a mad man. I told her I loved her and then scared her away. What was I thinking. I just couldn't stand to see her broken down. She was crying about me. I should've just kept my mouth closed and been the friend that she needed, but I couldn't help but believe this was all my fault when I saw her limp body laying in the street.

"KATE! LOOK OUT!" I yelled before she was on the ground. I ran after her hoping that's she chose to cling onto life, hoping that instead of giving up she would fight. I wanted her to fight and I couldn't live without her, knowing her death would be on my hands. I could t even imagine carrying that weight. I ran out to her and flew down, seeing blood flowing endlessly form the side of her stomach, her neck, and her forehead. There was no doubt in my mind that she would die. I hoped with all my heart that she would live. I cooed her name hoping that she was still conscious,

"Beckett, I need you, please come back to me."

Enjoy my lovelies 💖
- K