Caskett: Their Home

Chapter 10: Rewind

I made my way down to the morgue to have a talk with my best friend. She was placing a body away when I startled her from behind.

"Jeez, girl! Don't ever scare me like that again." Lanie said taking of her gloves and placing her hands on her hips.

"What?" I ask defensively.

"You didn't tell me you were coming back to work today."

"I know, but something happened."

"Are you ok?"

"I don't know..."

"Tell me everything."

After I explained to Lanie the status of Castle and i's relationship she squealed and gave me a hug. She was shocked to hear about Josh but was glad because she never really like us together, but personally it wasn't her place. She listened intently and gave her full opinion on everything, but it wasn't until I told her I was worried about Castle using and leaving me did she get upset. In a sort of good way?

"Girl, Castle has been crazy about you since the day you met. He would never do an obnoxious thing like that to you, you should know that by now, after all it's been 4 years."

"I know, it's just-"

"Did you at least talk to him and tell him that you were scared?"

"Yeah and he said that he would wait till the end of time but-"

"Then why are you freaking out?"

"Because I've never done this before!"

"Done what?"

"Feel this way about someone. And have them feel the same back. I've never been excited to go to work, but whenever I leave I get butterflies knowing that I'll see Castle. Having him smile at me, it- it makes me blush to no end. And when I leave I get sad, knowing that I'll have to wait hours until I see him again. I dream about him, and I dream about us. He makes me feel like I actually matter. And don't get me wrong, you do too, but it's a guy, and he wants to help me. No man has ever actually cared for me like that, and Castle does. So if he leaves me, I don't know what I'll do, and if this doesn't work out, I don't want it to ruin what we have. I've never- I'm just scared."

"Then tell him, tell him exactly what you just told me."

"I've tried but- it-"

"But what?"

"It never comes out the way I want it too. And I've tried to talk to him about this so many times, and it just comes across like I'm to paranoid."

"You have every right to be."

"What do you mean?"

"You've been kidnapped, shot, locked in freezers, handcuffed, and so much more. Most people couldn't and can't handle that, but you do. You're the strongest person I know. And for that you have every right to be edgy, paranoid. And if someone can't see through all that then they don't actually love you. And, what if the perfect guy isn't Castle. I know you want it to be, but life isn't perfect."

"Tell me about it..."

"It's a bitch, and it preys on depression and desperation, and right now, I don't mean to be rude, but you're giving it both! So suck it up sweet heart, and go get your man."

"Lanie..."

"And stop complaining! Don't overthink everything. Just do it, because I know you can."

"Thank you so much."

"Anytime, you know where I'll be."

I walked over to her and gave her the best hug I could. She really knows how to make me feel better. I know she'll always be by my side. And for now, she's all I need. Castle would be a great add on, and next, I'm going to go tell him everything. Who cares if I'm being tedious! It's something that's bugging me and I need to get it off my chest. So that's what I'm going to do.

After I said my final goodbye to Lanie I headed back to the precinct.

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When I got there I saw Castle sitting in his chair with two coffee's and one of them waiting for me. When he turned and saw me he smiled. That smile could light up the whole world. And yes, I got butterflies, and they felt amazing. I never wanted this tiny moment to end. I wanted it to stay with me, live with me, forever.  I walked up and sat down taking a sip of the ever so calming, heavenly flavor.

"So how was your morning?" I asked with a slight smirk.

"It was great! Thanks for the coffee by the way," Castle said a little to loud, and I shushed him, "where were you?"

"Oh," I began, "I was with Lanie, I needed to get something of my chest."

"That's good, how'd it go? Are you good? It always helps, talking."

"Speaking of which, I need to talk to you."

"What about?"

"It's kind of serious."

"Kate, if this is about me leaving you then stop."

"What?"

"Because it's not gonna happen. I love you."

"You do?"

"Yes! I always have. And nothing is ever going to stop me, you mean the world to me, and if I'm having a rough day, when I see you, you brighten it up just by being there, and just by telling me to stop coming up with ridiculous theories."

"I do do that a lot."

"And I love that about you. And if you're not ready for a relationship then I'll wait."

"No, no, no, it's not that-"

"And I know that you're afraid of me leaving you once we sleep together, but I promise you I won't. I know my reputation of a 'playboy' can get you worried, but I'm not one anymore. That all stopped when I realized how amazing you are, and how much you mean to me."

By the time Rick finished his heartwarming speech I had tears of joy slowly running out.

"You know just what to say."

"Well I am a writer."

"And you know what?"

"What?"

"I love you too."

"You do?"

"Always."

Ok, ok, I know this chapter is kind of short, BUT I really like it. And I know it's kind of mushy and all lovey dovey but every story needs that now and then, and this was where I figured it worked best. Love you pretty people 🐙💜

P.S. Idk why I chose the octopus...I just though it was cute 😊

- K