Caskett: Their Home

Chapter 8: Protection

"Josh did this to you! Why?" I squeaked jogging over to him, cupping his face in my hands.

"He had his bags with him and then he saw me entering your building and he started screaming at me, then he punched me a few times before your doorman threw him out."

"We broke up. I'm so sorry he did this to you." I stroked his cheek and he glanced over by my couch and saw the shattered lamp.

"No, are you ok?"

"I'm fine, just a little shaken up. But you knew what I do need." I slurred once again, the alcohol taking over, causing me to lunge over connecting our lips. I made my tongue explore his mouth. He pushed me back, grabbing ahold of my shoulders.

"Kate you're drunk. Already?"

"Why don't you join me." I said with my most sexy voice.

"Well- no, you know- I mean, Kate." He stuttered trying not to take up my intoxicated vulnerability.

"Please, we don't have to drink we could do other things too." I took a step towards him rubbing my hand over his chest and using my other one to ruffle in his hair.

I saw how uncomfortable Castle was, so I took my hands off of him and unbuttoned my shirt hallway down. I then wrapped both my arms around the back of his neck and began to suck on his pulse.

"Beckett- Kate, please stop. I don't want to do something that you'll regret tomorrow morning."

"I won't regret it."

"Yes you will."

"Try me."

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RICK'S P.O.V. She put me in an extremely tuff situation. If I said yes, the next morning when she wakes up she would regret it all. She would think I used her, and would leave. I'll always wait for her. She's not the type of person to jump into things, she wants to wait and take things slow so she knows if their really the right one for her. Kate isn't the type of person to throw herself at someone. I was extremely uncomfortable, I wanted this as much as she did right now but it wasn't the right thing. If I took her offer I wouldn't hold back, and I would go all in. And I know that Kate does not want this. In the hospital she asked me if I would use her and leave, she thought that I was only in it for her looks and body. I couldn't believe her. After everything we've been through I would be the one to wait. She should know that. But right now, she wanted something that I don't know if I could give her. She was walking closer and closer. She place her hands on my shirt button and began to undo it. I needed to act quick. The morning after she would kick me out. She would blame me for everything and never speak to me again. And that was something that I could not risk at the moment.

But then again. If I said no she would think that I didn't love her. She would think that she was trash. She would then kick me out too, she would probably resort to drinking and God only knows what else. I couldn't handle herself thinking that she wasn't worth anyone's time. She worth all the time in the world. I would die for her, I would be willing to wait till the end of time for her. I wanted to be her one and done.

What did I need to say? Yes or no?

"Kate," I began, taking a step back, "We...we can't do this." I removed her hands for my shirt and began buttoning it back up.

"Why? Am I not good enough for you? Do you not love me?"

"No, no, no, Kate that's not-"

"I can't believe I was so stupid! I believed that you actually loved me! Can you just go?" She teared up and buttoned her own short back up too. She walked over to her door and opened it.

"Kate, I'm not leaving. You cant trust yourself right now, you're drunk. You're going to do something you're going to regret. Like this. You would never throw yourself at me in a normal state. You would never be so vulgar. I know you and I love you but I can't take your offer at least not when our relationship is so new."

"I- I can't, please don't leave. I'm sorry. Just please stay. Help me get through this."

"Always." I would never leave Kate. She is my everything, I'd take a bullet for her. In fact I would've rather had that bullet hit me than her, but it happened for a reason. That played a role in where we are now. Kate is accepting the fact that she needs help. And she wants me to help her. I'll accept that.

I could see Kate contemplating what she had tried to convince me to do. Her hangover was coming sooner than expected and she was coming out of her drunken haze. Fear was streaked across her eyes, and she looked up at me, more lucid,

"Did I try to sleep with you?" She rubbed her fingers through her hair.

"Yes." It was my simple answer that caused her to go over the edge. She couldn't believe it. She began to cry. At first the tears fell little. But then as saw the look in my eyes, she only cried harder. I could see her body beginning to give out on her so I ran over. I reached her just in time. She had given up and fallen I wrapped my arms around her and went to the ground with her. She curled up on my lap and we just stayed there. Eventually she calmed down enough to breathe steadily again. I could hear her breathe even out and I could tell that she was asleep. I gently picked her up and walked into her room.

I covered her up and turned out the lights. I pulled up a chair in her room and put it facing her. I sat down and watched her, making sure nothing bad would ever happen.

HEY! I can't wait for next weeks episode of Castle! Aahhhhhh, it kinda reminds me of saw, you know being able to watch each other and... Ah I'll just shut up.

- K