Caskett: Their Home

Chapter 37: Figuring Things Out

"You kissed him!" Rick yelled.

"I'm sorry! But it was a part of my past and I needed to clear it up." Kate said trying to get him to calm down.

"So you kissed him!"

"You have no idea how sorry I am. But I needed to know it was over, and know I do. I missed you the whole time, and I want my life to be with you. I want to go out to dinner with your family. Are you mad at me?"

"I'm furious. You basically promised me that nothing would happen. And you were the one who didn't want to go in the first place. I can't believe you."

"I don't even know what happened to me. Please don't leave me." She said tearing up.

"I'm not going to leave you, but I need time. We all make mistakes, and we're all human, we all learn from the troubling times in our lives."

"I'm so awful."

"At least it was only a kiss," he glanced in her eyes and saw the guilt in them, "it was only a kiss, wasn't it?"

"No."

"Kate what the hell! Did you sleep with him! Was that a part of your past you needed to uncover!"

"It wasn't like that!"

"Did you sleep with him!"

"Almost."

"It took you almost a year to have sex with me after we got together, because I knew you were recovering. And I was fine waiting. But now after we sleep together, you just want to do it with every guy don't you!"

"No!"

"Do you want to call Tom and Sorrenson and maybe setup a threesome with them!"

"How can you say that!"

"I'm speaking the truth!"

Kate was now balling her eyes it freezing with almost only the blanket around her and in the 10 degree weather it was reasonable that she was shaking.

"Please Rick! It wasn't like that! At least I stopped it!"

"Barely! He probably already had your dress off! Just go put on some clothes and go to bed, I can't- I can't even look at you without feeling disgusted."

Kate couldn't even reply, that was harsh. She was speechless. The only thing that came out was choked cries and struggling lungs.

"Don't leave me, please, please, please!"

"We'll see."

"No! Please!" She said running over to him grabbing his arm.

"Please just leave me alone, I'm sorry but I can't. How can I trust you!"

Kate then ran into the bedroom and changed. It was 10:39. She was nauseous after the wine and kind of felt sick. And she then threw up in the bathroom. It wasn't a sick sick, it was a different kind, she just didn't know what kind.

She had sweats on and a tank top. She tried going to sleep, not expecting Rick to come to bed. She fell asleep for about and hour before waking up at 11:30. She grabbed her pillow and a light blanket and walked out to the living room. She saw him fast asleep on the couch. She silently began to cry and laid her pillow on the ground and sat down on the floor as well. She then softy strokes his cheek and whispered, "you don't deserve me." She then laid down under the couch and grabbed his hand giving it three light squeezing, meaning 'I love you.' She then drifted into a restless sleep.