Letters to Matt

Dear Matt,

This weekend wasn't so great.... Didn't even get to the weekend. I came on Monday and left on Wednesday when I was supposed to stay until Sunday. I want you to know that I don't except your reasons. I think you're scared of loving me and hurting me. And I was, too. But I'm not anymore. I know we've had up's and down's, but we always find a way through it. You said you were scared of wasting my time, but I know you're not wasting any of mine. How could you be when I'm over the moon happy and giddy when I'm with you? I'm scared I won't get a goodbye kiss today, when all I want is for you to hold me. I know your dad said that space would be the right thing, but even so, all I want is you. I'm afraid you're making a terrible mistake that you'll regret if you leave what we have. That's why I'm not accepting it. Not until I know that you are doing it for yourself and not for me. You came up with BS reasons that I knew were lies. You said them to hurt me. To get rid of me and make it easier for us both to leave. But I saw right through it. I know you want what's best for me, and thank you for that, but I already know and have what's best for me. You. And I want so badly for you to see that. You told me you loved me. You said I'll always be your first love. You've had three other girlfriends but I'll be your first love. If that's true, then why end it. You cried yourself to sleep. I know this 'cause at 2AM, when I couldn't sleep, I came to check on you. I had so many plans for this week. I was going to take you out sailing. We were going to party in the new year. Finally have that midnight kiss. Meet your other friends from England.

You know I love you. I always will. Don't let this be the end. I'm waiting for your call.

Love you forever,

~~Kit

P.S.: check the frame. In one of the letters. There's a message I wrote before leaving. We're not done yet. Not in my head.