How can things change so quickly? One minute we're cuddling and playing mini golf and in love and the next you're pushing me away. I've tried to figure it out. I spent the entire ride home crying and the entire night crying and the entire morning laying on the couch numbly running it through my head. Trying to figure it out. You don't just stop loving someone. I know you don't think you deserve love, but you do. I know you're scared and you think you're protecting me. But please. Reconsider. This isn't what's supposed to happen. We're supposed to spend the summer together. And we're supposed to be up all night tonight. Sharing that New Years kiss. I know you don't want this. Otherwise you wouldn't have reached for my hand on the bed. Or hugged me at the terminal. Or given me a real kiss-2 of them-at the terminal. You wouldn't have been crying. Please. Explain to me what went wrong. Honestly. Cause I can't figure it out and my mom and dad can't either. Friends checking up on me don't see a reason for it. Emma says this is a mistake and that she knows how much you adore me. So if none of us understand, why is it happening? I ship you. I pirate ship you. Don't stop shipping me. Come back to me. Or let me come to you. We're stronger together. I ship you.
I love you forever,
~~Kit
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Letters to Matt
RandomA series of love letters, rant letters, and future letters. The image of a relationships ups and downs from the point of view a loving girlfriend.
