Cheating is a choice. You can choose not to. If you're so scared that you're going to cheat in college, then the answer is simple. Don't. But here's the thing. To break up now, months and months before college, is stupid. What if you get to college and don't see anyone you like? Or they don't like you? What if you decide not to do it cause you just generally decided you don't want to?
You gave me hope that you would come back. You said see you later. But you don't actually mean it. Do you? On top of that I know you've been partying and drinking for hours on end every night since. I promised I'd make sure you didn't end up being like your dad. But now you've pushed me away and all I can do watch while you go down this stupid path.
I really loved you Matt. And you broke my heart. I left the house for the first time yesterday. And I still cried. I shiver everytime I try to fix things because I feel sick. You act like you're the only one who had to give things up in this relationship. But the truth is, we both did. Me especially. I gave up more than you would have ever given up. And now you leave. I don't get it. I loved you. Your father and sister and everyone around me thought you would change your mind. But you won't. You've already started your "exploring", haven't you. Well in a few days you will receive a box with your Christmas gift. I already bought it. Why not give it. My mom also bought you a gift. That will be in there also. And a few of the clothes I stole. I hope you're sure that this is what you want to do. Because everyone thinks this is your biggest mistake. And I'm going to try and start moving on. And if I'm good and moved on when you get back, and you say that you want to try again, I can't promise I will still want to.
You were my first love. Goodbye.
~~Kit
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Letters to Matt
RandomA series of love letters, rant letters, and future letters. The image of a relationships ups and downs from the point of view a loving girlfriend.
