I'm glad you're back. Honestly I am. And I'm glad you're being honest cause that matters most. But I must admit that I am disappointed and sad that on New Years, you kissed someone else. I'm jealous she got your lips. I was supposed to be the last person in 2015 to kiss them. And if I'm being honest, I was supposed to be the first in 2016, as well. But you took care of her while she threw up her guts...then you kissed her at midnight. The kiss I was supposed to have. And now that we've gone through a break up, even though we're back together, I almost feel like I know it's not going to last... I know why you broke up with me. Next year you want to explore. We talked about so many great things before the break. Moving in, owning a dog. Things were going so great. And now that we're back together, I lie in bed and say "this isn't going to last..." I really want it to. But in a few months, we'll be in college. And maybe you'll find someone to explore with. I want so badly to have that New Years kiss. And I only just missed it by two days....and I doubt I'll get my 2017 kiss, either. But I'm just going to live everyday for what it is. And hope we somehow make it. Maybe when I see you for the first time since the break up, things will make sense. That feeling that we will last will come back... But I'm still so scared you only made this decision for me. And if that's the case, we really have no chance.
Ship you forever,
~~Kit
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Letters to Matt
RandomA series of love letters, rant letters, and future letters. The image of a relationships ups and downs from the point of view a loving girlfriend.
